Because I Cannot Hurt You

Xiaosi looked at the white ceiling and then at his surroundings. Nobody was inside the ward. He blankly kept staring ahead with an unreadable expression.

The door opened, and Caihong stepped in with a fresh bouquet. She smiled and replaced the old flowers from the vase with the new ones.

"How are you Xiaosi?"

He blinked.

"You know, a little girl was selling this bouquet outside. It's cute, right? I know you would like them, so I am keeping by your side. Other than that S3 is going well. Like I tell you always, you don't have to worry about the company. By the way, I got a call from Alex. You remember him, right? Our foreign investor from Australia? He was asking about you. He is asking when will Xiaosi be available for dinner? The next time he comes to Beijing, he wants to meet you at any cost. So, you better be awake by then."

Xiaosi said nothing.

"Then let's see…oh yes!" She chuckled. "The other day Dad and I were teasing Shuang and Jack Si. My instinct is tingling. I am sure something will happen between them. Don't you think so too? They look good together."

She rolled her eyes. "Shuang always pretends that they are just friends but I beg otherwise. Why is she so adamant? Jack Si is so handsome."

His gaze turned cold.

"Imagine Shuang and Jack Si would be such a beautiful couple. You know now I am also excited to see their kids just like Dad. Mixed blood. It would be so cool, right?"

The iciness in his eyes melted away.

Tending to the soft flower petals, she said, "And Chyou. What should I do about her? I think Dad and her are planning something. I see her talking to Dad secretly and when I ask her about it, she just says that it's super secret! She just doesn't tell me! I wonder if it's related to Mom…"

He furrowed his brows.

She pursed her lips. "I am sure if you would have been there, Chyou wouldn't have hid her secret from you. Aahh, I am so curious!"

She turned to face Xiaosi and was about to sit beside him when their gazes met. "And you know-"

Caihong stopped talking. She rapidly blinked her eyes and rubbed them as if she was seeing an illusion. Xiaosi was looking back at her quite intently.

When it finally registered in her, a sharp gasp escaped her mouth, and she stumbled. Xiaosi widened his eyes.

"Xi-Xiaosi…?"

He slowly nodded. He was barely audible but spoke nevertheless. "Cai…Caihong…"

Tears fell. She was unable to speak for a long time. Her heart drummed so loudly as if it would burst out of her chest.

"Ja…Jack…Jack!"

Caihong trembled and rushed out of the ward. Inside his office, she exclaimed. "Jack!"

Jack Si's bluish-grey orbs looked at her in shock. "Sister-in-law, calm down. What's the rush? You look as if you ran a marathon-"

Her hand shook as she pointed towards Xiaosi's ward. "Xiaosi…Xiaosi…" She was breathless. "He is awake…"

He stood up, startled. "He is conscious?"

She nodded hastily.

"Damn! Let's go. I wanna meet that idiot! Nurse!"

They ran back to his ward. Caihong was afraid the whole way if it was just a dream and she would see him sleeping again.

But he was there. This time he was there, awake and conscious.

Jack Si stared at him in shock. "It's true…"

He, along with the nurse, checked his pulse and vitals. "Arrange for a scan right now. Do a blood test and give me the report."

"Yes, doctor."

As the nurse left, Jack Si leaned and asked, "Take it easy, okay? Don't try to remember everything at once."

He hummed.

"Do you know why you are in the hospital? Do you remember the event that night?"

He slowly nodded. 𝘧𝔯e𝗲𝙬ℯ𝙗𝓷o𝘷e𝗹.𝐜𝑜𝒎

"Do you remember your name?"

"...Zhu Xiaosi."

Caihong brightened amidst the tears shining in her eyes.

Does that mean he got his full memory back?

"Do you know who this woman is beside me?"

Her heart thumped in nervousness. After the reunion gathering night, she recalled the expression with which he had looked at her after waking up from his attack.

Stranger. As if there was no connection between them.

Would he say that again? Would he say that he doesn't recognize her?

Xiaosi stared at her and parted his lips. "My wife, Zhu Caihong."

She trembled. The corner of her eyes ached as she let the tears out. Lowering her head, she quietly sobbed from the bottom of her heart.

How long was I waiting to hear his voice? Is it really over? The wait…is it finally over?

Jack Si patted her shoulder. "Be strong, sister-in-law," he whispered, "You would need the strength to beat him up too."

He looked back at Xiaosi. "Great. It means the accident didn't affect your memory as that attack had. Do you remember Chyou?"

A warm smile bloomed on his lips. "My daughter. My cute little angel…"

He brightened. "That's correct! Now…"

Next came the main question.

"Do you remember everything? From your childhood to today?"

Caihong clasped her hands together.

Everything meant the night seven years ago too…

Xiaosi blinked and shook his head. "I…remember from the time I was awake after my attack. The first time I came to know that Caihong was my wife. Before that…it's all blank."

Jack Si furrowed his brows. "I see. So your complete memory still isn't back."

Caihong wiped her tears. "It's alright. Even if he remembers it from that day of his attack, that's fine too. We all want his memory back but as long as he still remembers something about us, I don't mind."

She wouldn't have minded even if Xiaosi had forgotten everything again. Sure, it would have hurt her, but the only important thing to her was Xiaosi coming out of the coma. Xiaosi waking up again was what she wanted the most.

To her, new memories could be built once again anytime. But Xiaosi's life…once it was gone, he would have never come back.