Chapter 1116 What I have always wanted
SUMIRE
Perhaps it was because of her former status as a goddess of life, and later on a goddess of death. But, she felt life and death more closely. In the past year, she has started to regain some powers she had in her other lives. The power of dreams. 'I have always had odd dreams, but I never understood the reason why.' Her dreams in the past are nothing in comparison to the ones she has been getting. Dreams, no nightmares of her loved ones who she lost.
Nightmares of the children that were killed. At first she didn't remember how they died. But she does now, she remembers going to the garden to call them all for a meal, only to see the sight covered in blood. She remembers her screams, and Lennon frantically rushing over to stop her from going to them. Her children, her children murdered in cold blood.
Murdered by the man who used to be her everything.
'Alex wouldn't do this to me. He wouldn't. He knows how much I have always wanted to have kids, he wouldn't take them from me.'
But, she was naive. She underestimated how much the curse had corrupted his body.
Sumire stood in the center of the scene before her, her crying hysterically as she held her bloody children and Lennon hugging her from the back.
Her gaze fell on the bodies and clenched her fist.
'It's okay.' She almost wanted to tell her past self. 'You will find love again, you will have more kids.'
But, saying such words would be insensitive. Even if she has new children, they could never replace the ones she lost. 'I remember now after seeing this scene, after seeing the children's dead bodies. Their eldest son was sixteen, they had a daughter that was fifteen. Two sons that are 10, and two daughters that are five. I wasn't on the run from Alex for five years but sixteen years.'
She managed to hide for so long but he suddenly found her? How did that happen? If she continues to have these dreams, perhaps she will find out. If she does, then maybe, she will truly be able to face Lucifer in the current life.
.....
She felt a sensation on her forehead. It was cold, but there was something comforting about it. She subconsciously snuggled against the warmth. She was still half asleep, but she knew it was someone's hand, someone she trusted.
"Does this feel good?"
A kind and gentle voice washing away all the terror and pain she felt from her nightmare of the past. This comfort reminds her of something she felt a long time ago.
Her vision suddenly started to focus, and she confirms that it was Yuhi's hand she was leaning against.
"Hey."
"My dear?"
"My love." Yuhi leans forward and kisses her lips. "How do you feel?"
"Did I faint?" Sumire wondered.
Yuhi nodded. "You were having a nightmare."
Sumire smiled at him weakly. A nightmare huh? It wasn't an ordinary nightmare, it was an actual memory from the past. Ever since she got them, she started to experiment to see what would happen if she tried speaking to anyone. They can't see or hear her, of course not. The present her doesn't belong in that time. Her soul is already there.
"My dear, I want to kiss."
Oh, how she wants to badly erase all her sorrows by melding their lips together!! If she could just become one with her dearest, her life would be perfect.
Yuhi chuckled.
"After you eat, the food will get cold." Yuhi points to the tray on the side.
Sumire's eyes brightened seeing the tray of food. "My dear you're so good to me! You deserve a reward."
Yuhi raised his eyebrow. "You really want that kiss huh?"
Sumire nodded eagerly and Yuhi leaned down. Sumire happily wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him deeply. Oh kissing him really does feel good. She will never get tired of this.
Never get tired of being with him, loving him and giving him everything.
After a few minutes Yuhi grunted and pulled back. "You have a fever Sumire, we shouldn't."
Sumire rolled her eyes. "It's a light fever, I feel fine. Do you not want me my dear?"
She says the words that provoke him every single time, knowing he won't be able to refuse.
...
Seeing her eldest son at the breakfast table, Sumire beamed happily as she hugged him. Oh her sweet Huan! To her surprise Huan wasn't returning her hug, instead he was gazing down at his plate with a gloomy expression.
"What's wrong Huan? You seem down." Sumire asked.
Did someone bully him?
'I know Ru has been bringing him whenever he does any jobs recently.'
"I wanted to sleep with you last night mom." Huan said.
Sumire looked at him blankly.?"You could have?"
Rather, if she knew Atushi returned the kids before she and Yuhi-san fell asleep. She would have come to him. Yuhi-san made it sound like she wouldn't be seeing them for a few days. Though, Huan is the only one here and the twins are missing. Ru must have had Huan.
Huan shook his head. "When mom and yuhi-san have the door locked. It means they are busy making my future siblings
Sumire looked horrified. "My precious, when did you learn to-"
"Yuhi-san told me."
She sends a harsh glare in Yuhis direction. What on earth is he telling the children?
Yuhi shrugged innocently.
Oh this guy, she wondered why he invested in locks for the rooms. He really is shameless, it shouldn't surprise her too much since even before they dated he did shameless things like writing a do not disturb sign on the infirmary door in school.
"Mom, I do want more siblings. But, I also want to spend some time with you."
Sumire's heart broke seeing Huan struggling not to cry. She glared at Yuhi and picked Huan up. "Then you can spend time with Mom for the next few days, we can kick Yuhi-san out."
Huan nodded. "Yuhi-san shouldn't hog you mom."
"Mom brought home some cake and other treats yesterday, did you see them?"
She did leave them out on the table for him.
"I did! Your so amazing mom, how did you know what I wanted?"
Sumire's gaze softened. This is what she has always wanted, for the longest time. To have a proper family.