Excruciating Deep Love with You

Translator: DWM

My world had fallen apart totally because the death of Su Chengzhao made my world turn to grey.

As for Qin Mochen, he made my world crash down and robbed my last desire to survive.

No, Mochen, no... 𝘧𝔯e𝗲𝙬ℯ𝙗𝓷o𝘷e𝗹.𝐜𝑜𝒎

I loosed Su Chengzhao and wanted to climb over to hug him.

Lying on the ground, Qin Mochen turned to look at me with strong love in his eyes, then he stretched out his hands and said in a weak voice, “Fei’er, I’m sorry. I made you live so hard in this life. I’m sorry...”

He was lying in a pool of blood with the blood wetting him all over. At this moment, his cold and handsome face also turned pale and made him look weak.

The death of Su Chengzhao and the weakness of Qin Mochen nearly drove me crazy.

“Mochen, don’t leave me. Chengzhao has already left me. I can’t live without you anymore, I can’t...” I got up and wanted to climb over to him but saw him bitterly smile at me.

His smile was full of helplessness, love and favour. Moreover, there was also an endless regret in that smile. Finally, he turned his regret to ‘sorry’ to me.

When the word fell down, I could only see him close his eyes and lie in front of me motionless.

The world became silent suddenly. I dazedly looked at Qin Mochen who had closed his eyes, the wounds on his chest, and his pale face.

“No, no... no, Mochen, you lied to me. You said that evil stays for thousands of years. You are so bad so how can you die? You have a thousand years to live!”

I wanted to climb over, however, my underbelly ached and the lower body was covered with blood. Finally, I looked at Qin Mochen with blurred eyes.

The pain had overwhelmed me, but I knew that my pain was much less than what they were feeling.

I wanted to hug Qin Mochen and wake him up, but finally, my consciousness blurred gradually, and I fell into endless darkness.

Everything was gone and everything would start again. If I didn’t exist in this world, everyone would become better.

The winter was frozen. It was snowing and everywhere was covered with snow, just as my heart, bleak and dead.

In the dark night, I walked in the street alone and recalled the past memories in my mind.

Two years had passed since that event; people and things around me had changed.

Su Chengzhao had left me alone with only his memories accompanying me.

Standing below a tree, I raised my head and saw the flying geese with endless sadness in my heart.

A familiar voice sounded behind me, “Miss Mo, it is cold outside. Let’s go in.”

I parted my lips lightly, “Is it really cold? But why can’t I feel it?”

Sister Ling sighed helplessly, “Miss Mo, you are lucky enough that you got a treatment in time two years ago. It saved your life, or your body would really be cold.”

I knew Sister Ling was teasing me. Yes, I thought that I would die of cervical cancer two years ago. However, out of my expectation, Qin Mochen contacted the most authoritative expert and cured me so that I could live.

I didn’t know when Qin Mochen became aware of my disease, but it was not important at all now.

Sister Ling walked forward and supported my arm, then looked at me worriedly, “Miss Mo, don’t be like this, or President Qin would be sad.”

Qin Mochen?

The three characters made my heart ache. If it was not for me, how could he become like this?

He got shot on his chest. I thought he had died, so when I woke up after that operation, I wanted to die following him. Unexpectedly, he was still alive, but he was in a permanent coma.

My heart twisted. I couldn’t help crying bitterly. Two years had passed, and I didn’t know how long he would sleep. Didn’t he love me? But why would he rather have me suffer two years than open his eyes to see me?

Sister Ling patted on my back, comforted me, and accompanied me silently.

“Fei’er,” a familiar voice sounded behind me. I was stunned and even thought that I was hallucinating.