Holding Onto My Man

Qin Shitian’s cultivation is powerful, Gu Bai can’t easily catch up to him.

When he rushed to Qin Shitian’s bedchamber, he saw several panic-stricken servants escaping frantically.

In the room, Qin Shitian’s ink black hair scattered and his eyes were red as he threw Mo Haige onto the bed. His mouth incessantly roared in outrage.

“You actually regard benzun as a pestilent poison. You are benzun’s person yet you dare to be disgusted with benzun! You know how much great effort benzun spent to get the jadeite!”

This is the first time in all these years that Qin Shitian got angry at Mo Haige, he was clearly angered to the point of becoming crazy. He treated Mo Haige incredibly well, but in the end he won’t even let him touch his hand, as if he’s a disgusting plague. How can his heart be well?

Qi and blood surged*, Qin Shitian seemed to be possessed by the devil*. He captured Mo Haige and locked him tightly in his arms. He buried his head deeply in his neck and breathed in his scent greedily.

*Blood boil/furious

*走火入魔 it can also mean that something has gone wrong in spiritual or martial arts training.

Mo Haige frowned in disgust and wanted to break away, but Qin Shitian held too tightly and therefore he couldn’t escape for a while.

The more he struggled, the angrier Qin Shitian became. Both eyes reddened and he lost his senses. He opened his mouth to gnaw on his neck and both hands wandered on his body wantonly.

“Shifu, let me go!” Mo Haige shouted in panic and struggled.

“You are benzun’s person, your life and everything is given to you by benzun, you dare reject benzun?!”

Qin Shitian is a unscrupulous, vicious and merciless great devil, if it wasn’t because he truly likes Mo Haige, how could he have the patience to endure Mo Haige’s despise all these years.

Today when the jade pendant broke from the fall, it completely ignited the accumulated dissatisfaction in his heart. Mo Haige’s struggle will only make him even more angry.

Seeing his clothes being torn by Qin Shitian, Mo Haige’s eyes revealed deep despair. Amidst the despair, it also carried a hint of resentment and rue.

He couldn’t help but take out the dagger on his body and stabbed it toward Qin Shitian. Qin Shitian didn’t check for a moment and was hit, he hissed in pain and let go.

“Shifu, I....”

He was able to get away and see Qin Shitian bleeding. Facing the eyes that became redder and the burst of murderous aura, his face paled a little.

Then he suddenly turned and fled. He knew that it wasn’t right to break the gift that shifu spent effort to prepare, and stabbing shifu is even more wrong, but he couldn’t stand shifu getting close. He deeply remembers the first time he saw Qin Shitian, he was drenched in blood and looked like a devil.

Gu Bai saw that he had escaped and couldn’t help but suddenly curse “fuck” in his heart.

Can’t you see that the great devil’s expression isn’t good? You should comfort him a bit, say a little sorry or something, then leave. You always run so fast, the rest of us will have to carry the pot* for you, big brother!

*take the blame/scapegoat

Silently mourning, Gu Bai looked around the empty bedchamber after everyone fled. He had to gather his courage and harden his scalp* to go forward. It’s all because of Ah Jiu’s wish to protect sect leader daren. The emotions of the original host absolutely won’t allow him to stay away from Qin Shitian like others.

*bite the bullet

“Sect leader, don’t be angry, it’s just that young sect leader can’t accept your kindness at the moment. After some time, he will come to understand the painstaking efforts of sect leader....Sect leader, Ah Jiu will handle the wound for you.”

Gu Bai carefully and cautiously moved closer to ask the red eyed Qin Shitian whose face is full of bloodthirst.

Although this man is a powerhouse, the dagger that Mo Haige used to injure him isn’t an ordinary item. If he doesn’t treat the wound in time, Qin Shitian will suffer great injury from the large amount of blood loss.

However, Qin Shitian stood there and didn’t move as he coldly took one look at him. The blood red pupils vanished and he spoke with icy coldness in his eyes.

“All of them ran away but you came forward instead, not afraid that benzun will kill you?”

“Ah Jiu’s life is sect leader’s...”

The expression on Gu Bai’s face is still loyal, but he is actually mourning in his heart. He also wants to leave, but he won’t be able to complete the mission and will also die.

Qin Shitian sharply stared at him for a while.

Seeing that he looks calm without any fear and those pure eyes are full of loyalty and anxious worry, a sincere concern without any pretence, the anger in his heart gradually subsided.

He maintained his cold expression as he sat on the stool next to him and took out a bottle of wound medicine from his space ring and placed it on the table. He spoke with a dark expression, “Apply medicine for benzun!”

“Yes, sect leader.”

Gu Bai responded and ran over quickly.

He unraveled Qin Shitian’s clothes to reveal his firm and robust chest that was bleeding non-stop from a savage wound. First, he wiped off the surrounding blood using the clear water on the table, and then carefully poured the medicinal powder onto the wound.

Due to the closeness, his breathing puffed on Qin Shitian’s chest. The warm feeling made Qin Shitian hold his breath involuntarily*. He watched his careful and worried movements, not knowing why a flow of heat suddenly surged in his heart, warming up his whole body.*....

*unable to control oneself

*四肢百骸 all the limbs and bones

Qin Shitian suddenly pinched his chin and forced him to look up at him.

“They all fear benzun and regard benzun as a scourge*, why aren’t you afraid of benzun? Benzun will kill anyone when in a bad mood. Don’t you think that the benzun is a monster? Are you really not afraid of death?...”

*Severe floods and fierce beasts (idiom)

Extremely dangerous or threatening.

No emotion could be seen in his eyes, it flashed with some kind of bloodthirsty glint that can terrify people. If ordinary people faced this, they will be frightened to the point of becoming unable to speak.

Gu Bai is of course fearful in his heart, but his emotions can be controlled at any time. Therefore, Qin Shitian only saw purity and earnesty in his eyes.

“Sect leader, Ah Jiu have said before, Ah Jiu’s life is saved by you, Ah Jiu will only be loyal to sect leader in this life. No matter what sect leader wants Ah Jiu to do, Ah Jiu will do it, even if sect leader wants Ah Jiu’s life....”

What’s the feeling of being fully looked at by someone? Qin Shitian didn’t know before, but at this moment, he saw the reflection of his appearance in Gu Bai’s eyes and his heart swelled.

“Mo Haige’s life was also saved by benzun, benzun brought him back from the heap of dead bodies. Why does he alienate benzun like that....”

He muttered while being reluctant to take back the hand pinching Gu Bai’s chin. The boy’s skin is warm, smooth and tender, very comfortable to touch.

Gu Bai didn’t know what to say to comfort him. Seeing his dark expression, he didn’t dare to say anything. If he said something wrong and made the man angry, he will have to deal with the consequences*.

*If you can’t eat it all, you’ll have to take it home (idiom)

You’ll have to take the consequence

So he can only shut his mouth and try to use an even more sincere and loyal gaze to look at Qin Shitian. He secretly mumbled in his heart that a heartless man like himself also didn’t understand this group of foolish and resentful men....

In order to prevent his emotion from being exposed and to make Qin Shitian still see the same thing, he can’t help but hypnotize himself to death in his heart: I am Ah Jiu, I am very loyal! I am Ah Jiu, I am very loyal! Unfaithfulness will be smashed to smithereens by the great devil! If you don’t gain the great devil’s trust and fail to complete the mission, you will die!

After repeating several times, the gaze he used to look at Qin Shitian became more loyal and pure....

This gaze made Qin Shitian’s heart suddenly beat faster. He stared at his delicate face and finely observed his appearance.

Although this boy isn’t as beautiful as his disciple, there’s a very pleasant feeling when you look at him, especially those eyes. When staring at someone, it seems to carry some kind of spell that can attract people, making people unable to refrain from getting closer.

He gently raised the hand that was pinching Gu Bai’s chin to slowly rub Gu Bai’s eyes. His gaze then fell onto the slightly parted lips, there’s a moist luster on top of it, extremely seductive.

Just one look and he can’t move away his line of sight anymore. He only feels that his mouth is dry and his throat is tight, a feeling of wanting to kiss.

In fact, he did just that. Gu Bai immediately widened his eyes in shock and then abruptly pushed Qin Shitian away “Sect leader!”

When Qin Shitian was pushed away by him, his eyes reddened again. With a dark face, he fiercely pulled him to his front.

“Didn’t you say that whatever benzun wants you to do, you’re willing to do it for benzun? Now you pushed benzun away, what are you doing? Benzun wants you now!”

After he finished talking, he ruthlessly kissed Gu Bai’s lips.

The soft and smooth feeling is better than he imagined. There’s a feeling that’s like being overwhelmed by emotions, making people obsessed.

Once Qin Shitian’s closed his eyes, he rudely pried open Gu Bai’s lips and probed inside to suck and taste the boy’s flavor.

Gu Bai resisted by using both hands to smack Qin Shitian’s sturdy chest, full of dismal as he struggled to leave. He just came to do the mission, why does he have to be pressed down by someone every time!

Although this body isn’t his own, it’s being controlled by him now. Does he have to be pressed down by a man for life every time he does a mission? Relying on the chrysanthemum to live, isn’t that too miserable?!

Faintly, Gu Bai didn’t want to admit that the reason he resisted was because the moment he was kissed by Qin Shitian, the face of Nie Qingcang flashed by....

“Mhmm......”

Qin Shitian is Mozong’s sect leader, the top powerhouse of the world, Gu Bai’s cultivation and strength isn’t enough, so it’s impossible to break free, and the emotions left by the original host also made him unable to reject that man like Mo Haige.

Gradually, under the kiss where Qin Shitian strongly desired to swallow down his lips, Gu Bai felt a tremor in his soul and energy poured into it.

He suddenly stopped struggling and opened his eyes with some disbelief. That feeling, that familiar feeling is....

The sudden stop of his struggle woke Qin Shitian up a bit. He who was only intimate to his disciple actually kissed another boy, and it even felt pretty good. This left him somewhat baffled and vexed.

Although he’s bloodthirsty, ruthless and sinister, he’s in fact very passionate and will only focus on one person.

Otherwise, it’s impossible for him not to have a single concubine in the back courtyard with his identity as Mozong’s sect leader. He liked Mo Haige for so long, it’s impossible that his feelings will change* just from a kiss that was pretty good. f𝘳𝚎𝐞we𝐛𝑛𝐨𝘃e𝘭.co𝘮

*change of affection, shift of love (idiom)

To fall in love with someone else

The anger dissipated and he became clear minded again. Looking at Gu Bai who’s gasping with flushed cheeks, he found out that some part of his body was as hard as iron and stood tall. He pushed him away with a stiff expression.

Gu Bai was immersed in the familiar feeling just now and didn’t pay attention, he accidentally fell to the ground. Qin Shitian looked at him and his heart suddenly tightened. He wants to help him but forced himself to hold back. His head is slightly messed up at the moment. 𝗳𝐫𝘦e𝘸𝗲𝚋𝓃𝚘v𝘦𝘭.𝑐𝒐m

He caught sight of the jade pieces that he prepared to give to Mo Haige fall out of Gu Bai’s bosom. His body turned rigid and he pursed his lips.

“Why did you pick up the broken pieces of the jade pendant?”

Gu Bai regained his conscience at this moment. He looked at that man’s sullen face and couldn’t gauge his current mood. He bowed his head and spoke softly.

“This was personally hand carved by sect leader, it’s the most precious thing in the whole world, I want to stick it back together....young sect leader will understand sect leader’s heart one day!”

At the end, he added another sentence. Qin Shitian is temperamental, but Mo Haige is his weakness when it comes to bootlicking. There won’t be any faults as long as Mo Haige is used in the talk.

But who knew that man would be so strange today. The flatter became an offence*, that sentence instantly brought back the fury that Mo Haige provoked before. Qin Shitian couldn’t help but crush the broken pieces on the ground into powder with one strike and spoke in anger.

“Don’t bother with broken things!”

“........”

Gu Bai didn’t speak, Qin Shitian is emotionally unstable right now, even the weakness to Mo Haige is no longer useful. If he says something wrong again, the other person might kill him.

But his heart bled in pity looking at the jade pendant that turned into powder. Big bro, that’s a Eternal Jadeite, it’s still a treasure even though it’s broken....

He caught a glimpse of the expression on his face that seemed to be distressed over the jade pendant. There was an odd feeling in Qin Shitian’s heart. He thought of the sentence that Gu Bai just said, ‘This was personally hand carved by sect leader, it’s the most precious thing in the whole world’ and his heart became burning hot for a moment.

“You withdraw, starting tomorrow, you go do things at the weaponry hall, no need to come over to benzun!”

He secretly clenched his fist and suppressed the strange feeling in his heart, striving to maintain a calm appearance.

When he made this decision, he completely didn’t expect how regretful he will be in the future. He pushed out the fat from the corners of his mouth*, regretful and resentful everyday for countless times.

*is this supposed to be a pout? pursed lips? puffed cheeks?

_(:ì」∠)_

Seeing his gloomy expression and also at the height of his anger, Gu Bai naturally didn’t dare to stroke his bad luck. He responded with “Yes, sect leader*” and quickly withdrew.

*遵命 Yes, sir/obey your command/do as you say