I Should Have Just Died

“I don’t know why I am doing this. Clearly… They’re people who’ve never held my hand, but I know I’m being stupid by myself…….”

“That’s what bloodlines are. Is there a saying that blood is thicker than water for nothing? You are not foolish; the course of a natural person is just swaying you. Everyone’s family is precious, and can’t they just turn away from them until the end? Anyone who can do that is nothing more than an animal that has violated human morality.”

Seidrick said as lightly as possible. He hoped that Alyssa’s expression would be relieved at least by the joking remarks.

Alyssa shook her head.

She read the implications of Seidrick words.

Alyssa was turned away from the royal family, which should overshadow her sense of loss. They had done something worse than forbidden, so for those people, he said not to suffer. Nevertheless, if Alyssa cares for them, then she is also a human being, so there is no need to blame herself.

Alyssa tilted her teacup.

As Seidrick said, it seems to warm her heart. Her tears were filling up.

Indeed, the royal bloodline was cut off.

It was a little different when she was a very young, ignorant child. The queen hated Alyssa, but she was compassionate. The queen may have taken revenge on her, but she didn’t kill her to the end.

It was the queen who took Alyssa, who had been neglected by the king, fed her and saved her life.

The queen was a parent with children, so she wasn’t cruel in the end.

It is true that she hated and persecuted Alyssa, who was growing up, but it was also true that she did not kill her, even though there were many ways to kill young Alyssa.

Sadness erupted.

Would anything have been different if Alyssa had been born into the Queen’s direct lineage?

“Kuuu….”

Then people would not have turned away from Alyssa and might have listened to her. If only the Queen hadn’t decided to send Alyssa to Cambridge as a victim of the dispute….

No.

The royal family should have paid the price for her corruption.

Even knowing that……

“Huwaaaa…”

Tears burst out.

Tears streamed down Alyssa’s white cheeks like waterfalls. Seidrick let out a light sigh and reached out to reach Alissa. He pulled her up and sat her on his lap, sharing his warmth.

“Why is it always your fault that it hurts…… .”

The dead would not have looked back on the sorrows of those left behind. He doesn’t know what kind of kindness they showed to Alyssa, but at the end of the day, Alyssa was nothing but an enemy to get rid of.

Seidrick let out a slow breath as he rested his chin on Alyssa’s crown.

After pulling the empty teacup out of Alyssa’s hand, Seidrick settled Alyssa and hugged her.

“I killed……”

Alyssa whispered in a voice that seemed to disperse.

“All of them…… ”

It was a burden that could not be lifted from her. No words seemed to be of any consolation, so Seidrick chose to keep his mouth shut. Alyssa’s hot tears wet his shoulders.

Seidrick couldn’t fully understand Alyssa either.

Because he had never been in a situation like her.

It was enough just to be able to protect Alyssa by her side right now.

***

Unlike Kruno, who was sent to the Principality of Seraphina for Sarah’s responsibility, Norfe’s body was collected by Alyssa herself. Of course, Norfe could not be buried in the Royal Cemetery because he was already a criminal. Instead, he was buried together with the king and queen, where Vanessa was buried.

There were no tombstones and no one to mourn them.

In the eyes of many, they died as sinners and deserved their death, but Alyssa never wished death on them.

Alyssa was the only one.

Alyssa, holding a white paper flower in her hand, fiddled with the black dress.

She seemed to have a lot of things he wanted to say, but they were all scattered in the wind. She just stood still, staring at the stone-covered top.

She never thought everyone would go away so easily.

No matter how much they hated her, it must be because they never thought of killing her. Alyssa chewed her lips.

It was to stop the tears from forming again. The paper flower in Alyssa’s hand swayed in the wind. She doesn’t know what comfort the scentless flowers will bring to them……

It was not too much to hand over a mere fancy paper flower to those who lost their honor, lost property, and lost everything.

Alyssa placed the paper flower on the grave.

Jewel-like tears glistened in the corners of Alyssa’s eyes as she straightened her back.

“Peace be with you all there….”

There is nothing to be greedy for.

Alyssa stepped back.

A light breeze swayed the paper flower.