If the Deep Sea Forgets You

Third Young Master did not continue speaking, and the two of them fell silent before Xia Qingyi suddenly said, “I want to ask you something, Third Young Master.”

She said, “How exactly did Xiao Ye die?”

Xia Qingyi would ask this because she was constantly haunted by the nightmares of Xiao Ye’s death. If she did not make clear of what happened, she might continue to be haunted by the nightmare even in the future.

“He… I never thought that he would die. I know Wang Sheng liked him… I thought of bringing him along because I had no other choice… Wang Sheng no longer hid his feelings when he looked at Xiao Ye, so he had probably guessed that I knew about it. Wang Sheng was really a pervert… I really never thought that Xiao Ye would die… I thought Wang Sheng would let Xiao Ye follow him at the very least… but I really never thought that he would have Xiao Ye be killed.”

Third Young Master continued to speak intermittently, “He was killed by Wang Sheng with a stab to his abdomen.” He lowered his head. “I didn’t understand initially, but I realized why afterwards. Wang Sheng probably would rather destroy the things he liked but he could not attain. So that’s why Xiao Ye died in his hands.”

Xia Qingyi’s heart was already dead. “Did Xiao Ye say something before he died?”

Third Young Master looked at her. “He told me not to tell you how he died. And to let you lead your own life. Most of his last words were actually for you.”

Xia Qingyi pursed her lips, and stared at the ground with her head lowered, not daring to look up.

“What happened to Xiao Ye that time…” Third Young Master said, “Do you hate me for it?”

“Not to the point of hate, I should have guessed that you would do something like this at that time. I was the one who neglected a lot of things. I was only tired, and I didn’t want to continue living in that kind of environment.”

Xia Qingyi took in a deep breath. “Were you constantly puzzled by why my relationship with Xiao Ye was that good the entire time? You’re clearly the one who I loved for six years.”

She lowered her head and muttered to herself, “Actually, I don’t even know why myself. I did like you, I liked you for six years and I couldn’t stop. Xiao Ye knew about this as well. There were no romantic feelings between the two of us, Xiao Ye treated me as his older sister and I treated him as my younger brother.”

“It was only like that between the two of us.” Xia Qingyi lowered her head. “Sometimes I do feel that he was slowly becoming like a relative to me.

“It felt warm. Really warm,” Xia Qingyi said.

Third Young Master looked at her. “Then do you still have feelings for me? Now?”

Xia Qingyi raised her head to look at him quietly, her eyes showing nothing but the truth, and she did not reply.

Third Young Master looked at her eyes, feeling as though he was pierced right in the heart by a sword, and generally understood what she meant. He forced himself to smile and said, “I understand, you don’t have to answer me.”

Xia Qingyi was still sitting on the stool and looking at him. The officer standing at the side announced that the time was up, and then dragged Third Young Master away. He turned around and left with the officer, standing upright with his chest out, just as when he came in. Even in jail, he seemed to be the same imposing Third Young Master from the gang.

Xia Qingyi slowly put down the receiver, watched him until she could no longer see him, and then turned around and left.

Mo Han was still waiting for her at home.

Everything relating to Third Young Master was already in the past from now on. She would not see him any longer.

On the way back, she finally let go of the worries within her and rested for a while. But she had not relaxed for long when she thought that it was time to tell Mo Han about her past. She decided to leave it up to him what he wanted to do after he knew about it.

If he chose to leave, Xia Qingyi thought that there was probably not very surprising. She would not pester Mo Han, so if he really chose to leave, she would respect his choice.

Xia Qingyi actually hoped to some degree that Mo Han would leave. She remained the same from the past until now, but Mo Han was a very good person and he definitely deserved better. If she could not become the best for him, she was willing to let someone else better replace her by his side.

Even though she felt like crying just thinking about this.

But Xia Qingyi could not blame him.

After all, he did not know what she was like in the past.

People could find it hard to accept the events that had happened to her in the past.

Even if she had made all the preparations, she still felt nervous in her heart the moment she opened the door.

She had just walked in when she saw Mo Han sitting on the sofa in the living room. When she opened the door, he raised his head to look at her at the doorway. There were no sounds of television in the house, and the atmosphere was so quiet that it made her feel anxious.

“You’re back?” he asked.

“Yeah.” Xia Qingyi nodded her head. She closed the door, changed her shoes in the entryway and cautiously walked into the house.

“Did everything go well?”

Xia Qingyi did not dare to sit next to him, neither did she dare to look into his eyes. She only stood far away from him and did not move. “Still okay, it went pretty smoothly.”

Mo Han still asked in the end. “Did something happen?”

Xia Qingyi raised her head to look at him, and she knew that she could no longer hide it from him. But she still did not know how to say it. She gave a small sigh, and casually said, “Something did happen.”

Xia Qingyi walked in front of him and forced herself to face all of this. She sat down next to Mo Han, looked into his eyes seriously and said, “Mo Han… I remembered everything.”

Mo Han did not look too surprised. Xia Qingyi thought that he had probably guessed it as well.

“I remembered everything… all of it…” she said.

He listened to her. She looked at his eyes and thought for a while before she said, “What I’m going to say now may be different from what you’re thinking, so you have to be prepared.”

Mo Han patted her head, unable to bear seeing her frowning face, and tried to assuage her feelings. “What kind of different things are there, you’re married?”

Xia Qingyi shook her head.

“Or you have a boyfriend?”

Xia Qingyi still shook her head, but her expression remained tight. “Neither…”

She was still troubled, and said a little hesitantly, “My past… is rather unacceptable…” She turned around to look at Mo Han’s expression, but it remained unchanged, and he was still solemnly looking at her.

“Why did you stop talking?” Mo Han said, “I’m not as old-fashioned as you thought, just rest easy and continue speaking, I’ll sit here beside you and listen to you.”

Xia Qingyi relaxed a little, adjusted her thoughts and told Mo Han about everything that had happened to her since she was 11. She only left out the part about liking Third Young Master for six years.

She hid the part about liking Third Young Master for six years from him, because she felt that there was already no need to say it.

She only said that Third Young Master was her superior.

Xia Qingyi admitted that she would still feel something for Third Young Master, but it was no longer the painful love she had at that time. She was very clear that Third Young Master was only part of her past now. He did not belong in her future. Her future only belonged to Mo Han.

From the moment she told Third Young Master that she was going to leave, she knew that she would not turn back again. She could not let herself get caught up in another painful six years. The Song Nianmu and Lina from the past had already been killed at that dilapidated warehouse.

And there was just a little part of it that was selfish. Xia Qingyi did not want to let Mo Han get caught up in her past. She did not want to see him troubled over her relationship with Third Young Master for the entire day. After all, Third Young Master was only part of her past to Xia Qingyi.

She felt her throat dry up when she had finished giving a brief summary of the events of the past nine years. She swallowed and looked at Mo Han’s eyes, waiting for him to respond.

Mo Han looked at her and smiled before he finally said, “It feels as though I’m listening to someone else’s story.”

“But… it’s all true.”

Mo Han’s eyes were twinkling, and he patted her head. “It’s okay, it’s already over. Everything is in the past.”

Xia Qingyi looked at him and did not speak.

“Just that… I feel sad for you.” Mo Han said, “I finally know how those scars on your body came about… Actually, I sort of guessed it more or less. When I sent you to the hospital for the first time, a doctor talked to me about your injuries for a long time. When I saw you sleeping on the bed through the window after that, I could feel that your past may not be that simple.”

Xia Qingyi did not expect that Mo Han would have such a casual attitude. He seemed like he did not mind much about her past, and she was a little surprised. “Then you also don’t mind that I was cuddled and hugged by all those other guys before, and that I was holding onto their arms and went to all sorts of different places with them?”

Mo Han furrowed his eyebrows and looked at her. “You just want to agitate me…?”

Xia Qingyi was showing that temper of hers again. “You just look like… you’re not affected at all. What I did in the past, you don’t seem to care…”

Mo Han hugged her tight in his embrace. “Not that I don’t mind… but… I don’t want our current lives now to be affected by your past.”

Xia Qingyi raised her head to look at him. “But your girlfriend was part of the underworld in the past! Such a dangerous person, you don’t mind it at all?”

Mo Han smiled again, and lightly pinched her nose. “Little brat from the underworld, it sounds pretty charming.”

Xia Qingyi pouted. “You behave like this now, aren’t you afraid that I would do something bad to you in the future? What if I went back to my old ways, and cut people down and lied to them whenever I felt like it?”

“Don’t worry, I’ll look after you properly and stop you from doing all those things in the future.”

Xia Qingyi did not know what to say. Her fears that Mo Han would leave her after hearing about her past had not come true, and their relationship did not seem to be negatively affected at all.

But she was still a little worried. Their time together would be long after all, there was no guarantee that Mo Han would not regret things in the future. But she wanted to just stay at this place that she had finally reached after so much difficulty.

“Then you… have to look after me well in the future.” Xia Qingyi lay down into Mo Han’s lap.

“I’ll be obedient, I won’t cause any trouble,” Xia Qingyi said softly.