In This Life, I Will Be The Lord

"Perez!"

His complexion was so pale that it could be seen clearly even in the dimly lit office.

"I'll call Estira!"

I was about to get up to call the butler right away.

But Perez's hand grabbed me.

"...It's okay, Tia. I'm fine."

"Do you know how your face looks now?"

Why are you so stubborn?

However, Perez remained the same.

"It's just that I'm feeling a little nauseous. I'm healthy."

Healthy?

For a moment, a dreadful thought ran through my head.

"Are you, perhaps, poison..."

I hate to imagine it, but I can't help it.

The last time I saw Perez so sick was when he was poisoned.

Fortunately, Perez shook his head.

"No. I called the royal doctor in the morning and checked it out. It's not poison."

"Then it's even weirder".

He's not poisoned, but he's not feeling well.

"What did the royal doctor say? It's not a serious illness... is it?"

"No. It was just indigestion."

"What indigestion is so bad?"

In the first place, the word 'indigestion' does not fit with Perez.

He's a healthy guy.

It was when I was squinting and doubting the skills of the royal doctor.

Perez wrapped my hand tighter and said.

"Tia, I'm fine. Healthy. No problem"

It was something strange to say.

It wasn't just a word not to worry, it was a voice that seemed to be mixed with fear.

Why is he like this today?

I nodded my head involuntarily at the unexpected look I kept seeing.

"Yeah. If you say so, I guess so. By the way, even though you are not feeling well, have you been baking cookies yourself like this?"

My hand swept his fine hair.

"Great job."

"Do you like my gift...?"

Perez asked, leaning towards me.

"Of course."

It was me and Perez who already had everything.

In other words, material gifts mean little.

However.

"Yeah. It reminds me of the past and it's good."

As I touched the surface of the crispy cookie, I couldn't help but smile.

"Perez, you have been fond of sweets since you were young."

It's still nice to see his eyes round after eating chocolate cookies for the first time.

"How cute was a kid who was indifferent to the world... Why do you look at it like that?"

Like sometimes, we just talked about the past.

His red eyes were shaking like the surface of a wave.

"No, just because."

"Just because?"

"...I thought it was a relief."

It feels like the conversation doesn't match up and goes around in vain?

Is it such a relief that I like chocolate cookie gifts?

"Try one, Tia."

"Huh? Yes, sure."

Still, the smell of sweet cookies made me drool.

It's still before dinner, but who cares?

When I took a big bite, the sweet taste spread through my mouth.

As expected, it tasted as good as its appearance.

As I was so absorbed with the cookie, I heard a very small self-talk in my ears as I munching the second piece.

"That's a relief."

My head was still full of many question marks, but one thing was certain.

Today he's a little weird.

***

I was nervous.

Eventually, things happened at dinner.

Was it fortunate that we were going to have dinner in the greenhouse for a close date rather than the dining room where the whole family gathers?

"Ugh!"

From the time the appetizer came out, I thought that Perez's complexion was not good.

As soon as the main menu, steak, came out, he covered his mouth with a napkin.

But perhaps that wasn't enough, he couldn't hold back and even jumped up from his seat.

Clink!

As a result, the wine glass placed in front of him fell to the floor and shattered.

"I can't."

I got up from my seat following Perez.

Then I grabbed the arm of the man who was still covering his mouth with a napkin, supported him and led him out of the greenhouse.

"Let's go back to the bedroom and rest."

"No, Tia. I'm fine..."

"What do you mean it's okay?"

Then, quite cold words came out without realizing it to the man who was trying to be stubborn.

"You're not okay right now. So listen to me."

I was upset.

Why are you overdoing it?

I glanced at Perez once and spoke to the butler who didn't know what to do.

"Tell Dr. Estira to come to my bedroom."

"Yes, Matriarch!"

Fortunately, Perez's condition improved a lot on the way to the bedroom.

When we first left the greenhouse, he even stumbled a little, but as we got closer to the bedroom, he improved to the point where he didn't need my help.

However, Perez lay down on the bed without letting go of my tightly gripped hand.

"Did you call me, Matriarch?"

"Come on, Estira."

"I wonder if the Matriarch's condition is..."

Since the effect of morning sickness medicine began to work in the morning, Estira was worried that another problem had arisen.

"No, not me. Perez is a little sick."

"Yes? Your Majesty?"

Estira quickly grabbed the visiting bag and approached Perez.

"I'm going to check in a little bit."

I nodded my head and stepped back instead of Perez, who was completely exhausted and covered his eyes with his arms.

Estira really examined at Perez from head to toe.

Estira spoke to us only after as long as the last time she examined me.

"Really... you seem to have indigestion."

"No way."

Without realizing it, the words came out.

"No, it's not that I don't believe in Estira's diagnosis. I can't believe Perez suffers from simple indigestion. Something's a little off."

Estira nodded her head at the excuse that wasn't mine.

"I agree with you, Matriarch. But now it appears that His Majesty's condition is indigestion."

Estira has never been misdiagnosed so far.

I said, slightly hitting Perez, who was lying down in a tearful state, so that he wouldn't get sick.

"What did you eat wrong?"

"I really didn't have that..."

Perez muttered with a slightly unfair face.

"Then, will you give me some medicine to calm the nausea, Estira?"

"Yes, I'll do that. But Matriarch, the matriarch is..."

Sneaking at Perez's glance, Estira asked me secretly.

"I'm fine. Very fine."

"Then I'm glad."

Estira left the room, saying she would bring medicine quickly.

"What the hell is going on?"

I thought it'd be a good date for the first time in a while.

It was us who had been busy for a while because we were preparing for the academy agenda and wedding.

In the end, I had time like this only when those things were settled.

I was stroking Perez's hand blankly, and a small voice said.

"I'm sorry, Tia."

Perhaps because he was sick, he looked very gloomy.

"Do not be sorry. You are human too, so you can get sick."

"But today..."

Perez held my hand tightly.

But there was no word that followed.

It was as if his lower lip had been bitten so hard that he couldn't take it out of his mouth.

It's been a long time since we had a date, so maybe there was something he cared about?

I patted the back of the man's hand.

"It's okay. Take a break until Estira brings the medicine."

"...yes."

Even after answering, Perez, who had been thinking about something while rubbing my hand for a while, eventually closed his blurry eyes.

He seemed to have just fallen asleep.

Even though he was sick, I was looking at his pretty appearance for a while, but I suddenly lifted my head in regret.

'I was going to talk about it during dinner tonight.'

You're going to be a father now.

So what will your reaction be?

Will you be surprised? Or will you like it?

'I don't think today is a day.'

I can't help it.

Perez was scheduled to stay in Lombardi until tomorrow afternoon, so I'll have to tell him when his condition gets better.

However, I was imagining various things and it seemed that I was expecting it without realizing it.

"Sigh."

I sighed involuntarily.

Then, in order not to disturb the sleeping man, I slowly left the bedroom in order to read or read a book.

Without noticing that, Perez's long eyelashes, who seemed to have been completely asleep, were trembling.

***

I fell asleep next to Perez after a long time.

As expected, Estira's medicine worked well. His condition improved much at night, so I was relieved.

Perhaps because it's been a while since I had someone else's warmth in my bed, I fell asleep very well.

"Gasp!"

Until Perez jumped up with a quick breath.

"Wh- What? What's wrong, Perez?"

In the light of dawn when the sun was about to rise, Perez was staring down at his hand blankly.

"That dream again..."

"Dream? What kind of dream did you have?"