Looking Over at the Guy Across the Way

“Chen Xiao? What’s wrong? What’s with that ugly look?” Gu MengYang looked at Chen Xiao’s pale face with some concern, subconsciously reaching out and touching the other’s forehead. His hand ended up blocked before he touched his face. He was shocked, pulling back his accosted hand. “Are you feeling sick?”

“I’m okay……” Chen Xiao said sullenly and he tried to adjust his expression, only to find he couldn’t even pretend to smile. He thought pitifully to himself, you say you’re secretly in love but show others this kind of face? If he had a girlfriend, nothing could be done, but he didn’t want to hear from the other’s mouth that he liked someone else. This made him have such a feeling, sour and bitter. Compared to not liking him, liking someone else was more helpless.

He looked at Gu MengYang and thought, it’s not just you who is a fool.

After that, Chen Xiao went home very quickly. The atmosphere between the two was so cold that Gu MengYang met his gaze with a little caution. He knew how bad his expression was but he could only hold it in his heart in a bitter manner. He pretended not to see the question in Gu MengYang’s eyes.

What a terrible day.

“Luo Xin, what do you do when you like a straight guy……” Chen Xiao lay dead on his bed, sending a text message to the good friend he had known since childhood. He hadn’t even put the phone down yet when it shook with a “buzz buzz.”

“Either bend him! Or turn yourself straight!”

That was so concise……Chen Xiao looked at the screen for a while and then replied: “But he has someone he likes.”

“That’s why you bend him! Xiongdi, go forth boldly. You can’t be sure he’s been turned straight, which also can be regarded as a good thing. Otherwise, I’ll come visit. Gege’s big stick will come to comfort you, ahahaha.”

Fuck! Chen Xiao sent out a few dirty words back in reply, throwing the phone aside. It was a mistake to look to him, so unreliable.

Chen Xiao and Luo Xin grew up in the same building and their parents knew each other too. The first time they met, they had a huge fight just over some marbles. After that, the two started to bully other kids in the building. Both of them looked really good, especially Luo Xin, with a doll face that aroused the senses and a natural curl of hair that hung softly on the side of his face. When someone saw him, they wouldn’t fail to praise him for his beauty. But who could tell they both were full of evil tricks. So after they fought and paid each other back once, they were happy to work together, splitting their marbles and racing games fifty-fifty.

Unluckily, the two of them were of the same kind.

When Chen Xiao learned of the word ‘homosexuality’, he recognized this was his sexuality. He wasn’t interested in girls at all. Instead, when he played with boys, his heart would race. Strength, bulging muscles, sweaty skin, low magnetic grunting, all of it attracted him, a hot-blooded youth.

When he told Luo Xin about this, the other boy just said “oh” faintly and continued to copy his homework.

“Hey, how about a bit of a reaction?”

“Oh, I’m unable to actually like you like that, we’re irreconcilable as a couple, so give up.”

“Fuck! Who likes you anyway! I just mean that I seem to like men!”

“I know.” f𝘳ℯℯ𝙬𝒆𝚋𝐧oν𝑒Ɩ.c𝑜𝙢

“How did you know?”

“By the same type of intuition. Stop making noise, I need to concentrate on copying your work.”

“Same type….ah?!” f𝓇𝘦e𝑤𝘦𝚋𝒏૦ѵℯ𝒍.c𝐨𝒎

Recalling this, Chen Xiao couldn’t help but giggle. At that time, that guy, Luo Xin, had played him like a fiddle. Ah, he clearly had an angelic face, but he was actually possessed by a devil. Who knew how many men he had destroyed.

Later, Chen Xiao met He JinFei. They met at a bar, when he was already interning in a company and once went out to drink with his work colleagues, only to be chatted up by He JinFei in the bathroom. The other man had been dressed in a neat suit, with a meticulous look, and he had come up to him directly and asked him whether he wanted to exchange contact info. This make Chen Xiao wonder if he was so obvious because his face had ‘homosexuality’ engraved on it.

He had to admit, the other man was really a good, tender romantic partner. Everything was done perfectly so that Chen Xiao, who had run into a man for the first time, took it seriously, believing it was love and that it would last a life time. So he was stunned by the confused expression of the other man when he finally asked while blushing if they could live together.

“Eh? You think we are…..that we’re in love? Sorry, I thought you knew the rules of the game.”

Rules of the game? Fuck your rules of the game. At that time, Chen Xiao didn’t know how to control his emotions, so he ran all the way home crying awkwardly.

The first time, he met the wrong person and he had the wrong feelings. But who could guess this time he would be more pitiful, because he liked a straight man.

Ah, that’s enough. Chen Xiao scratched his head and got up from bed with a sigh. He decided to go out and buy vegetables. This evening……Gu MengYang, please come over to have dinner.

This is how he was. He would stubbornly refuse to give up until he was badly bruised and broken.