Love History Caused By Willful Negligence

Translated by Chef

Edited by Chef

It was Lee Wooyeon.

How? How on earth did he know?

“Inseop, please open the door. If you don’t, I’ll break it anyway.”

It wasn’t just a threat. A low voice revealed his will.

Inseop quickly went to the front door and opened the door. Lee Wooyeon entered the house, shaking off the rain from his clothes.

“For some reason, the weather forecast is right. It’s going to pour all night.”

His attitude was no different from usual. Inseop wondered if he had not received the memo he had entrusted to him, but the moment he saw the bouquet in Lee Wooyeon’s hand, he realized that was not the case.

“Thank you for the flowers.”

As if Lee Wooyeon felt his gaze, he smiled as he placed the half-remaining bouquet down on his shelf. He asked Kim Kangwoo to deliver flowers to him, so there’s no way he wouldn’t have received an envelope. 𝗯𝐞𝗱𝗻𝐨𝘃𝐞𝐥.𝗻𝗲𝐭

“Did you move today?”

Lee Wooyeon asks as he looks around the house. Inseop nodded slightly.

“It’s similar to the house you used to live in.”

Perhaps because of his words, Inseop remembered the day Lee Wooyeon visited the rooftop where he lived.

… It’s a completely different situation, but it’s no mistake that it feels similar.

“How…did you know?”

When Inseop stammered and asked, Lee Wooyeon said, “Hmm,” and pulled the corners of his mouth into a smile.

“Are you curious about that?”

“… ”

“I went to the airport after hearing that you had received a copy of your passport. Haha, I really didn’t want to have to look for Inseop at the airport again.”

Lee Wooyeon smiled bitterly, as if recalling a bad memory.

“But when I checked, I heard that foreigners cannot leave the country with just a copy of their passport. Ha, then how should I find you?”

Lee Wooyeon crossed his arms and twitched his fingers. Although it looked playful at first glance, his eyes scanned Inseop closely.

“So, I went to your house. I thought you would come if I waited.”

Lee Wooyeon’s eyes drew a thin curve. The cool moon seemed to be caught in his eyes.

“But you moved?”

“That…”

Inseop’s mouth did not move. It wasn’t because of Lee Wooyeon that he moved, but coincidentally, the timing was right. No matter what he said now, it could only be an excuse.

“I thought I would not be able to track your location because your phone was turned off.”

The director considered the acting of the actor’s eyes important. He said that only when there is a part of the eye that is commonly described as cleverness can there be deep emotion in the eyes. The director said that he especially liked Lee Wooyeon’s eyes. He praised his eyes, saying they were more attractive when viewed through the camera viewfinder. Although CEO Kim described it as madness rather than cleverness.

Lee Wooyeon looked directly at Inseop with sparkling eyes. The eyes were full of madness.

“I looked up the call list. Korea is a very good country. There is nothing that cannot be done with money. It’s even faster.”

Lee Wooyeon’s soft laughter followed.

“The last person you spoke to was a real estate office. Should I say I’m lucky? No, is it bad luck on Mr. Inseop’s part?”

“Sorry for the inconvenience.”

Although he expressed that everything could be solved with money, it was clear that he must have gone through a very complicated process to get to this point.

“It was a little cumbersome. Did you think I wouldn’t be able to find you if you moved to a new house and turned off your phone?”

Lee Wooyeon smiled brightly and asked. Inseop shook his head.

“I was planning on telling you later.”

“Later, when?”

Lee Wooyeon bent down, made eye contact with Inseop, and persistently asked.

“After you get your affairs in order and prepare to go to America?”

“… .”

Inseop, who had been caught, could not answer anything.

For the time being, he didn’t have the confidence to face Lee Wooyeon. He planned to contact him after he had sorted things out to some extent.

“I thought so, haha”

Lee Wooyeon lowered his head and laughed briefly. Perhaps because of his disheveled hair and rain-soaked Tom Ford suit, his appearance stood out especially today.

It felt like he was seeing Lee Wooyeon on the screen. Sometimes, no, often, he felt unreal, as if he would never be a part of his life.

At that time, Lee Wooyeon’s hand suddenly approached. Inseop held his breath. His cold hand squeezed Inseop’s cheek.

“I feel really shit when you say that.”

His rain-soaked fingertips awakened a sense of reality. Inseop looked up at Lee Wooyeon with blank eyes, as if he had just woken up from a dream.

“But why are you doing this all of a sudden?”

Lee Wooyeon’s fingertips rubbed Inseop’s cheek. He didn’t look angry or irritated. He just looked curious.

He didn’t answer. He couldn’t tell him that he did that when he met another woman. He was afraid of hearing Lee Wooyeon’s answer again, asking what the big deal was.

“Mr. Inseop”

Lee Wooyeon called Inseop. Inseop could not meet his eyes and answered ‘yes’ in a low voice.

“It’s okay, so tell me. I will listen to you.”

But he couldn’t just bow his head down and hide like a child without saying a word. He had to say something. Inseop caught his breath.

“That….”

Inseop raised his head to answer but froze. Lee Wooyeon and him made eye contact. He omitted that he was not angry because he was only hearing his voice. Because it was a polite and friendly voice.

“What’s going on? It’s because I’m worried.”

Lee Wooyeon asks again. A perfectly symmetrical smile was on his lips. It was an alien-like smile.

Inseop realized that his friendly voice, smile, and eyes were all fake. He was now acting out a plausible response.

“I, I, so…”

Inseop’s mind became even more messed up.

What on earth was Lee Wooyeon thinking? What was his truth?

“I do not know. What should I do? I don’t know much, it’s my first time doing something like this…”

Inseop slowly spit out the words that lingered on his lips one by one.

“Yes, it’s different for each person, but I don’t really understand Lee Wooyeon.”

“Don’t you understand? Me?”

Inseop nodded slightly. Lee Wooyeon swallowed a short laugh. Then he immediately tilts his head and makes eye contact with Inseop.

“Is it such a big problem that you don’t understand?”

Lee Wooyeon asks as if he really doesn’t know. There were times when that happened. When he was talking to Lee Wooyeon, he felt like he was facing a wall.

“I’m sorry.”

Inseop bowed his head and apologized.

“Not everyone understands me.”

A smile as soft as a spring breeze followed. But Inseop’s fingertips gradually grew cold. At that time, Lee Wooyeon noticed something and he slowly turned his head.

“Did you bring this too?”

What Lee Wooyeon pointed to was a flower pot sent by Kang Youngmo. Before Inseop had time to reply, Lee Wooyeon grabbed the flower plant as if pulling his hair. Then he threw it on the floor.

With a clanging sound, the fragments of the flower pot were scattered everywhere. Inseop’s face turned pale at his sudden action.

“I’m sorry.”

Lee Wooyeon kindly offered an apology.

“I worked so hard to come here, but I’m so fucking pissed so I came in here casually.”

Lee Wooyeon approached Inseop. His eyes were pitch black and frozen.

Inseop had seen those eyes before. It was the same look in his eyes that questioned him in Hawaii.

Inseop took a step back without realizing it. The sink touched his back. Lee Wooyeon stretched out his hand and trapped Inseop’s body.

“Mr. Inseop”

Inseop took a deep breath. He tried not to, but his body was shaking.

“Inseop. Raise your head.”

Inseop slowly raised his head as Lee Wooyeon told him.

“Really why did you do that?”

“Why did you turn people into idiots and then go like that, huh? Is that really the reason?”

Tell me, Lee Wooyeon said to Inseop in a sweet voice like a lover whispering to him. However, contrary to the calm voice, the tendons on Lee Wooyeon’s arm, which was gripping the sink, stood out.

“Lee Wooyeon… I don’t understand Lee Wooyeon’s actions. I don’t…”

“Why did you start dating someone you don’t understand in the first place?”

Lee Wooyeon shot back coldly.

Inseop was speechless. He believed he would understand. Because he was sufficiently satisfied with the effort that Lee Wooyeon showed for him.

“Are there any other reasons?”

Inseop nodded his head. Lee Wooyeon burst into laughter. Then he suddenly asks:

“Who is 4783?”

“What?”

“4783. You spoke to the real estate agent twice today. And who is the other person you were talking to?”

Inseop searched his memory and realized that the number 4783 that Lee Wooyeon was talking about was the last digit of Yoon Ahreum’s phone number.

“…..”

Inseop’s face turned pale.

“Who is this?”

Lee Wooyeon asked.

“…This person is not related.”

“I’ll judge that, so tell me who it is.”

Inseop shook his head. He didn’t want to drag Yoon Ahreum into their affair.

“She’s really unrelated. So…!”

Inseop was scared and clung to Lee Wooyeon. Lee Wooyeon, who was making a phone call, looked down at Inseop with cold eyes.

“It’s not like that.”

Lee Wooyeon pressed the call button. Inseop became anxious. If it were Lee Wooyeon now, there was no way to know what he would do.

Inseop urgently reached out and took the cell phone from Lee Wooyeon. Lee Wooyeon, who had suddenly had the cell phone taken away, looked down at Inseop with an expressionless face.

“Please.”

Lee Wooyeon held out his hand. Inseop hid his cell phone behind his back.

“Please. Mr. Inseop.”

“Don’t do this. Please…”

“‘Please’.”

Lee Wooyeon slowly ponders Inseop’s words. Then he buried his face in Inseop’s shoulder and muttered.

“I’d like to ask you too. Please, please give it to me.”

Every time a soft voice passed through his shoulder, Inseop’s body trembled. Lee Wooyeon, asked again.

Inseop shook his head, holding his cell phone tightly. Lee Wooyeon sighed and raised his head. There was a slanted smile on his lips.

“Yoon Areum like it here?”

“What?”

“4783. It’s Yoon Ahreum.”

“…how did you know?”

“I saw her at the animal hospital back then. How could I not know, am I an idiot?”

Yoon Ahreum wrote down her phone number as an emergency contact, and Wooyeon only glanced at it once. More surprising than his terrible memory was the fact that he knew from the beginning but pretended not to know to check Inseop’s reaction.

“Then why…”

“I want to see how cheap it is.”

Lee Wooyeon stretched out his hand. Before Inseop could react, his cell phone was snatched away. It was an overwhelming power superiority. Having his cell phone taken away was a calculated move from the beginning.

“What do you like so much?” Lee Wooyeon asks.

“I don’t.”

“Face? Don’t I have a better face? So is it personality? Do you like her because she’s nice?”

“It’s not like that.”

“Did she say she’ll raise dogs and cats? So you like it? I’m even willing to bring an elephant and raise it if Inseop is okay with it.”

He was smiling. Inseop started to feel upset because he felt like he was being teased. Perhaps because of his mood, he found it harder to breathe than before.

“I’ll say it again, absolutely nothing like that…”

“Or is she better than me?”

Lee Wooyeon’s smile disappeared. No, no expression stayed on his face. His eyes were cold, as if his emotions had evaporated.

“Do you like it when you see it? Do you like it more with women? Haha, does Yoon Ahreum know? Does she know where to hit you so that you cum?”

“…don’t talk like that.”

“Then how should I tell you?” Lee Wooyeon smiled.

“Mr. Inseop. I love you.”

“… ”

Inseop froze at the sudden confession of love.

“I love you more than anything in the world. I love you so much that I can’t bring anyone else with me.”

A soft voice confessed his earnest feelings. However, Lee Wooyeon’s expression showed no emotion whatsoever.

“Can I say it like this?”

“..”

Inseop swallowed his breath and lowered his head. His vision was dizzy. He felt really bad.

“You don’t like this either? Then what should I do?”

Inseop did not give any answer to Lee Wooyeon’s question.

“I am asking what I should do for you. Lift your head, Mr. Inseop.”

Inseop stubbornly kept his mouth shut and did not respond.

“Why? No matter what I do, you hate me now? Is that why? Haha, but what can I do? I still have no intention of letting Inseop go.”

Hearing Lee Wooyeon’s words, which seemed to be chewed between his teeth and spitting them out, something hot rose up Inseop’s throat.

He never resented Lee Wooyeon. He just hoped that he would take the change in emotions a little less for granted.

“I won’t let you go, Mr. Inseop. It doesn’t matter what kind of person you are. Absolutely not,”

Lee Wooyeon blurted out as if he had made a promise.

“..Why?”

“What?”

“Why can’t I?”

His vision became blurry. Tears flowed before they could form. His heart ached. It hurt so much that he couldn’t breathe.

“Why can’t I be with someone else?”

He has never had anyone other than Lee Wooyeon in his heart. He just liked him. Even though he knew that he couldn’t objectively be a good person, he couldn’t help his liking for him. Even though he held his hand, kissed him, and had sex with him over the years, he got better and better to the point where he felt excited and trembled every time. He was someone he loved more than anything else.

Nevertheless, Inseop felt a strong impulse. He was angry at Lee Wooyeon’s double attitude, casually saying that it was common for people to overlap each other’s bodies, but telling him that he could never do that. He wanted to hurt his feelings by telling a lie that wasn’t even in his heart. It was the first malice he had in his life.

“That kind of thing is common. You said it’s common. So…!”

At that time, Lee Wooyeon’s hand caught Inseop’s eyes. There was blood flowing down Lee Wooyeon’s hand. His cell phone screen was shattered due to how much strength he was holding on to with his hands. The broken screen was deeply embedded in his finger.

“The blood…..”

Inseop raised his head and was unable to continue speaking.

Lee Wooyeon was looking at him. Inseop knew what his distorted eyes and pursed lips meant.

“… ”

Lee Wooyeon stared at Inseop in silence. Inseop sensed his own success.

This left a deep dent in Lee Wooyeon’s feelings.

“Do you like other people?”

Lee Wooyeon asked with eyes like a wounded animal. The tendons running down the back of his hand revealed themselves more and more roughly. The more he did it, the thicker the blood flowing down his hand.

“Did you really like someone else?”

Lee Wooyeon asked. He slowly poured out his heart, syllable by syllable, as if he was forcefully swallowing his emotions. The floor formed a small puddle of his blood.

“Don’t do that. The bleeding… “

Inseop clung to his hand. Warm blood soaked Inseop’s hands. Inseop tried to get Lee Wooyeon to open his fist, but he didn’t budge.

“Inseop.”

Lee Wooyeon called Inseop’s name.

Inseop faced the consequences of his malice.

He never wanted his parents who abandoned him to be unhappy. He even tried to understand the landlord who kicked him out of his room overnight for ridiculous reasons. To make matters worse, he couldn’t even tear off a single leaf from the flower pot Kang Youngmo gave him.

“In the end, did you end up liking someone other than me?”

Lee Wooyeon’s voice trembled slightly.

Inseop gasped. He hurt the person he thought was more important than anyone else. And when he saw the scar, he was relieved to see that he still cared about him. His ugliness was disgusting. It throbbed as if there was a sharp metal stuck in his heart.

“You couldn’t understand me, so you decided to throw me away?”

Lee Wooyeon asked, giving strength to his hand. Even though he knew it was no use, Inseop grabbed Lee Wooyeon’s fist with both his hands.

“Don’t do that. The wound..”

Tears burst out again. He felt like he was going crazy. Inseop silently shed tears while holding Lee Wooyeon’s wound.

“…don’t cry.”

In the end, Lee Wooyeon relaxed his grip on Inseop’s hand to wipe away his tears.

Inseop took a towel and wrapped it around Lee Wooyeon’s hand, but the bleeding showed no sign of stopping, possibly because his blood vessel was torn.

“You need to go to the hospital. There’s too much blood. Go to the hospital quickly…”

Before Inseop could finish speaking, Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop. Then he kissed him. His rushing movements were as desperate as those of a drowning person.

Inseop pushed Lee Wooyeon away.

Lee Wooyeon, who was pushed away by a weak force, hugged Inseop again and kissed him.

Inseop pushed him away again. Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop and kissed him even though he was repeatedly rejected. He was a mess. Both men were covered in blood.

“… sorry.”

Inseop apologized to Lee Wooyeon. His throat was sore from crying.

“Sorry….”

Inseop apologized to Lee Wooyeon repeatedly. Lee Wooyeon cupped Inseop’s face. Inseop’s small face quickly became covered in blood.

“Why are you crying? Is it because you really feel sorry for me?”

Lee Wooyeon continued speaking, carefully stroking Inseop’s cheek with his tattered hand.

“You don’t have to do it again. I’m fine.”

Inseop stubbornly shook his head.

He wasn’t okay at all. He learned how his love for Lee Wooyeon deteriorates and hurts others. Even if he just buried it and moved on, it was a cruel and ugly feeling that would resurface again and again.

His breath was suffocating, as if his lungs were filled with putrid water.

“… sorry.”

Tears flowed endlessly. He didn’t want to hurt Lee Wooyeon again. He didn’t want to hate the person he loved more than anything.

“Sorry. I am… Mr. Wooyeon, I’m sorry.”

Inseop realized how heavy his feelings were for Lee Wooyeon. Although he thought it was natural for people’s emotions to change, he secretly hoped that Lee Wooyeon would not change his love. He wanted to be loved by him without fail. For the most part, he wanted him to love only him.

“I didn’t mean to throw you away. Mr. Wooyeon, I don’t want to hate you… You said it was common to meet someone else… so I… “

“What do you mean? With someone else, who, wait a minute.”

He felt a tightness of gravity in his heart. It became increasingly difficult to breathe. Inseop’s body stumbled and broke.

“Mr. Inseop”

Lee Wooyeon grabbed Inseop’s shoulder. Inseop said, “I’m sorry,” and apologized. No, he was trying to apologize.

“Mr. Inseop, Mr. Inseop, hey! Choi Inseop!” Lee Wooyeon urgently called Inseop.

Inseop’s vision became blurry. He blinked to come to his senses, but it was no use.

“Mr. Inseop! Come to your senses. Come on. Suddenly, why are you like this?”

He thought he wouldn’t be scared when he sees the face of the person he likes for the last time, but that wasn’t the case. He was several times more scared. This might be the last time he sees him.

“Mr. Inseop!”

..I like you so much.

“Mr. Inseop! Come to your senses. I did everything wrong, for fuck’s sake, Inseop! Please!”

Lee Wooyeon’s screaming voice receded into the darkness.