Love History Caused By Willful Negligence

Translated by Chef

Edited by Chef

‘Isn’t that Lee Wooyeon?’

‘No way. Would Lee Wooyeon be alone in a place like this?’

‘He’s so handsome. Is he waiting for his girlfriend?’

He did not take his eyes off the entry gate, despite the noise around him. The estimated arrival time kept getting pushed back, possibly because the flight was delayed.

How long has it been since then?

It was the first time he would see his face again since he went to America to see Inseop. So far, only phone calls have continued intermittently. While he was anxious, wondering if Inseop might change his mind and say he would not come, he received a call saying he would come to Korea. That day he bought his plane ticket and sent it to him.

In the United States, Inseop enjoyed the happiness he had among a warm and friendly family. Even though he knew that it was his own selfishness that made him leave him behind, he just couldn’t give up.

A murmur was heard from the gate. People started coming out one by one. Not long after,heI caught sight of Inseop pushing his luggage. The sight of him looking around with wide eyes, as if slightly frightened, gave him a tingling sensation in his lower stomach. He thought about shouting out loud, but decided against it. He strangely liked the sight of Inseop looking for him.

‘… !’

Then their eyes met. Although he was wearing a hat that was too low, Inseop’s eyes widened as if he recognized him right away.

‘In..’

He started to call his name but stopped. Inseop smiled brightly. An innocent smile spread across his white face.

He walked over and snatched the luggage from Inseop’s hand.

He grabbed his wrist.

‘Uh..’

Although he felt Inseop getting nervous, he continued to the place where his car was parked.

The brisk walking later turned into almost running. He roughly stuffed his luggage into the trunk and put Inseop in the passenger seat. As soon as he got into the driver’s seat, he grabbed Inseop’s neck and kissed him. He felt like he was going to live only then.

Inseop, who was stiff as if shocked, opened his small lips and responded to his kiss.

He sucked frantically inside his wet mouth. He rubbed his soft lips and enjoyed the breath that escaped.

He liked it.

Inseop caught his breath and grabbed his arm. It felt like his head was going to turn from the slight weight hanging on him.

He likes it, he likes it so much, even now…he likes him.

The sweet moments continued to the point where he didn’t realize how much time had passed.

The taste of blood rose from his mouth. His blood seeped out from a small crack in Inseop’s lips, which were swollen from constant sucking. Only then did he release his lips.

Their eyes met. Flushed cheeks, disheveled hair, swollen lips, and big eyes that didn’t know what to do out of embarrassment.

The moment he saw that dumbfounded look, he burst out laughing. For the first time in his life, he felt extremely happy.

‘Welcome.’

He said that and hugged Inseop’s back. He hugged his small, warm body and enjoyed his complete presence.

He lost Inseop several times in numerous nightmares. Now, finally, he’s got him again.

‘Inseop.’

‘Yes.’

Inseop calmly answered.

His cheeks, which were slightly plumper than before, were full of youthful vitality. He willingly lowered his head and kissed Inseop’s cheek, earlobe, eyelids, and forehead.

As he leaned against Inseop’s chest, he could hear a regular heartbeat. He will never, ever lose him again. He closed his eyes, swearing again and again.

The nightmare of that day comes back to him again.

The body that was getting cold, the eyes that were losing vitality, the blood that was flowing out no matter how hard he tried to stop it with his hands…

“Wooyeon….”

At first, he frowned at the voice calling him.

“Wooyeon, Wooyeon.”

Someone shook his shoulder. When he opened his eyes, he saw a small face with a worried expression.

“Are you okay?”

He didn’t know why he was asking that question, so he looked at the other person for a while.

“I think you were having a bad dream… I’m sorry if I woke you up for no reason.”

Instead of answering, he reached out his hand and pulled Inseop’s body. He buried his nose in his body that was in his arms and took a deep breath.

“..Did you have a nightmare?”

“I don’t know.”

The small window, cramped bed, and desk filled with books reminded him of where he was. This is Inseop’s living room. Only then did he take a long breath.

Inseop hesitantly wrapped his arms around Lee Wooyeon’s back and started patting him.

“What are you doing?

Lee Wooyeon asked, smiling with his eyes closed.

“Every time I had a nightmare, my mother would do this… I liked it.”

Should I not do it? Inseop asks carefully. Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop’s waist and clung to him like a child. Inseop carefully patted his back again.

The anxiety that had clung to his lungs like the damp moisture of the rainy season subsided. On the cramped bed, Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop’s waist tightly. He could smell Inseop’s flesh through his pajamas. Inseop always smelled good. It was not an artificial smell like shampoo or soap, but a scent that could be felt from one’s own body.

When he smelled that scent, he felt an inexplicable hunger.

“…ah!”

When he put his hand through his pajamas, Inseop straightened up.

“Hey, your hand…”

He stroked his back along his spine. The soft skin felt like it wrapped around his hand.

“Mr. Wooyeon, please, your hand….”

“Do you want me to put it in?”

Lee Wooyeon gave an odd answer and put his hand through Inseop’s baggy pajama pants. The flesh he spoke of was touched.

“Oh, wait… ugh.”

Because he had stroked it with his hand several times before going to sleep, the skin, which had become extremely sensitive, quickly swelled. Lee Wooyeon pulled Inseop’s pajama pants down. Inseop withdrew his body with his legs closed.

“Please open your legs,”

Lee Wooyeon kissed Inseop’s back and whispered. Inseop shook his head. He had sex so many times, but Inseop always acted like he was having sex for the first time. He is both cute and pitiful. He brought out his sadism.

“It’s because I want to see Inseop’s pretty cock.”

He kissed Inseop’s knee and begged like a spoiled child. Inseop looks like he’s about to burst into tears and spreads his legs.

Fuck.

Swallowing his curses, Lee Wooyeon rushed at him like a hungry dog. Without even touching his fingertips, he was immersed in the sensation of rubbing his hard cock against Inseop’s lower body. Inseop held on to Lee Wooyeon’s arm and pleaded with him in a trembling voice.

“We did it too much in the evening and my lower body got swollen… ”

“I know.”

As soon as the 10-day schedule ended, he came to Inseop’s house. As soon as the front door closed, he pulled down his pants before even taking off his shoes. After cumming twice while standing, he took him to the bed and fucked Inseop for over two hours.

He stretched out his hand and traced Inseop’s bottom. When his fingertips touched the hot hole, the way it flinched and contracted was so fucking adorable.

“I won’t put it in.”

He gently comforted Inseop by rubbing the hole with his hand. Inseop, who was very scared, almost clung to Lee Wooyeon.

Lee Wooyeon supported the back of Inseop’s head with one hand and made him lean against him, then continued to trace the hole.

“… Don’t put it in.”

“Uh-huh.

Lee Wooyeon answered half-heartedly and bit the back of Inseop’s neck. As he bit the flesh in his mouth and raised his teeth to roll his tongue, a mark quickly developed.

“…mark….”

“It’s okay. It gets erased quickly”

Inseop was weak when it came to Lee Wooyeon. Lee Wooyeon knew better than anyone else that bruises or cuts rarely go away.

Lee Wooyeon bit the back of his neck on the other side. If he sucked it with a little force, teeth marks would appear along with hickeys.

“Wooyeon….”

Inseop grabbed Lee Wooyeon’s arm with weak strength.

He liked it when Inseop called his name. He didn’t know if he knew, but Inseop looked a little troubled every time he called his name.

That sight was so endearing that Lee Wooyeon would deliberately pretend not to hear even when Inseop called him.

“Wooyeon… “ 𝒷𝓮𝒹𝓃ℴ𝓿𝓮𝓁.𝓬𝓸𝓂

Lee Wooyeon pretended not to hear and sucked on Inseop’s shoulder. This time, he called his name a little more loudly.

“Yes.”

Lee Wooyeon answered.

“…It is visible there.”

“Then can I do it where it’s not visible?”

Inseop thought about it and nodded slightly. Lee Wooyeon smiled and lifted the hem of Inseop’s clothes. It was filled with marks taken during their sex earlier.

Lee Wooyeon sucked Inseop’s nipple without hesitation.

“Ah! Now, wait a minute. There…”

“You said I could leave it somewhere else. It’s not visible here. You’re not going to show it to others, are you?”

He placed the protruding nipple between his teeth and rolled it with his tongue. Each time, Inseop groaned and turned away. His body temperature was high and his body began to sweat quickly. His scent became stronger. Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop from behind and held his waist close.

“I won’t.”

He whispered and Wooyeon kissed the back of his neck. Inseop’s back trembled slightly as he put his hard penis between his buttocks and bucked his waist. He kissed the back of his head, his earlobes, his shoulders, and his cheeks without stopping.

Inseop’s breathing became shallow and his skin became increasingly red. The pre-cum that flowed from the tip of his penis moistened the hole and made a slurping sound every time it rubbed against his flesh.

Lee Wooyeon hugged Inseop’s shoulder tightly from behind and called his name.

Inseop, Inseop, I like you, Inseop, so much…

Inseop’s hand, clutching the sheet, trembled as the confession continued like a groan. The man’s penis slowly touched and fell into the gap that narrowly opened and then closed, as if teasing.

“… are you okay?”

Lee Wooyeon asked and he heard Inseop’s soft voice answering back.

“You can put it in. Ah!”

Without waiting, Lee Wooyeon grabbed Inseop and plunged his penis into him. Lee Wooyeon bit his lip as he felt his lower body being swallowed by the slightly warm. hole Lee Wooyeon’s neat face was disturbed by sexual desire. As he catches his breath, Inseop looks back with a slightly frightened look in his eyes. The moment his eyes meet, Lee Wooyeon confirms.

The harmlessness of Inseop, who has never harmed anyone and cannot harm anyone.

He strengthened his arms and pushed his waist hard.

“Ha.”

Inseop laid down on the bed as if he was collapsing. Lee Wooyeon rushed towards Inseop like a dog in heat and thrust his cock into Inseop. Even though Inseop was panting, he tried to keep his movements in sync. It was lovely. He wanted to do anything. He wanted to belong to Choi Inseop somehow.

“Inseop, Inseop…”

Every time his name was called, Inseop nodded his head. Lee Wooyeon turned Inseop’s body and spread his legs. After deeply interlocking his lower legs, he hungrily kissed Inseop’s cheek, which was red with heat and excitement.

As if responding to Lee Wooyeon’s call, Inseop stretched out his arms and wrapped his arms around his neck. Lee Wooyeon worked his back like a crazy person. Every time he shoved his hard, thick cock into Inseop’s body, his cruel desires boiled over.

There was a memorable passage in a book he read when he was young that analyzed serial killers. A significant number of murderers felt sexually excited by the act of committing murder. Among them, those who use knives said that every time they stab their victim with a knife, they feel as if they are inserting their genitals.

Is this really a normal feeling?

His dizzying desire was so dizzying that his vision became blurred, and he tasted blood in his throat. He couldn’t breathe. It was confusing. Later, it got to the point where he couldn’t tell what he was putting inside Inseop.

“Inseop… Inseop.”

Big eyes filled with tears answered the call again and again. Only after receiving that confirmation was he able to breathe. Lee Wooyeon ejaculated for a long time. Only after he had calmed down his shaky breathing did he hug Inseop’s limp body.

“Inseop.”

He called his name but got no answer.

“Inseop. Are you okay?”

He shook his shoulder lightly, but Inseop did not move. Lee Wooyeon turned Inseop’s body over and laid him down.

“Come to your senses.”

Sometimes, Inseop could not overcome his excitement during sexual intercourse and would faint. Lee Wooyeon tapped Inseop’s cheek with the back of his hand and called out to him. At that time, a lukewarm feeling spread around his stomach.

“……?”

The moment he stretched out his hand and checked, Lee Wooyeon stopped breathing. His sheets were soaked. Hee was covered in blood.

“Inseop!”

Lee Wooyeon called Inseop. The pale face and suddenly cold body reminded him of the seriousness of the situation.

“Why all of a sudden…”

He couldn’t come to his senses. Lee Wooyeon covered Inseop’s body with the sheet and quickly called 911. Soon after, a sharp siren sound began to sound.

With a thud, the door closed in front of him.

“Guardians must wait outside.”

The operating room door was closed. Lee Wooyeon was blank, and he had to look at the closed door. He still didn’t understand what was going on with him.

Then he suddenly looked down at his hands. It was soaked with Inseop’s blood.

‘I love you.’

When Inseop said that, what did he say in response?

‘If we have similar feelings, it’s okay.’

Lee Wooyeon cupped his face with his palms. His breath caught in his throat as his shame surged through him.

He’s not even sure if his feelings are the same as Inseop’s. His own feelings were always clouded. Even in his love for the other person, he couldn’t filter out the dirty residue.

But dare he say that this is similar to the feelings he has?

“Choi Inseop’s guardian.”

Lee Wooyeon stood up from his seat. The doctor holding the chart began his explanation with a tired look on his face.

“I checked all the patient history and conducted tests, but there have been no major problems so far. I think we can monitor his current condition and then move him to a regular hospital room.”

“He lost so much blood, is he okay?”

At Lee Wooyeon’s question, the doctor raised his eyes as if he had heard something unusual.

“Blood?”

Lee Wooyeon looked down at his hands. The blood-soaked towel was hanging heavily.

“Did you hurt your hand? I think you need to go to the emergency room for treatment.”

He couldn’t answer any of the doctor’s questions. He unwrapped the towel. Red blood was dripping down. He couldn’t figure out what was what. His head hurt like it was tearing apart. He felt sick. It was so hot, like a knife stuck in his throat, that he didn’t know what to do.

That moment.

“…Are you okay?”

When he raised his head, he met Inseop’s big eyes. The gentleness with which he carefully examines him made him feel numb, as if all the nerves in his body were being crushed.

Every time he treated him like he was young and weak. Even in moments like these, he wanted to cling to him.

“…I’m fine.”

When he answers like that, Inseop’s eyes close. He sat down in his chair, cupping his face in his palms.

Okay. It will be okay.

The doctor also said it wasn’t a big problem. It’s just an occasional seizure.

If he does all the tests, he can get treatment, the memories that were forced deep inside him and which he could not tell anyone will come back to him. Inseop lost so much blood from being stabbed that his heart stopped twice in the ambulance. Every time he used the defibrillator, his thin body jumped and convulsed. That person died twice before his eyes.

His hands were shaking as he lost control.

He was scared. He was so afraid that he would lose Inseop like this, and he didn’t have the confidence to endure that time without Inseop again.

… He was not okay at all.

He swallowed the words he couldn’t bear to say and held his blood-soaked hands together.

Tap, tap, tap.

A cold sensation ran down his face. He blinked, then lifted his head and checked his hands. It was raining.

He was in front of Inseop’s new house.

“… ”

It was only then that Lee Wooyeon realized that he was wearing a patient uniform. The patient’s clothes were soaked as if it had been raining since earlier. Lee Wooyeon looked down at his hand blankly. It was clean.

He was back to reality.

When he closed his eyes, he dreamed. No, it was a memory from the past. Without fail, he lost Inseop every time, and his hands were soaked in blood.

Later, reality and dreams became intertwined and he had to check his hands to know where he was.

“… ”

When did he get here?

While he was thinking about it, rainwater that was in his eyelashes fell down.

And then he realized why he was standing here.

Now, he can’t properly distinguish between reality and dreams, he doesn’t know if he can dare call the feelings he has love, and he can’t even tell whether he’s a monster or a human.

I miss you.

Choi Inseop, the man who has told someone like him several times that he likes them, his eyes full of life, the smile that spreads across his white face, he…

Because he doesn’t want to be abandoned by him.

He held his breath as the vivid emotions suddenly rose up in him.

Lee Wooyeon approached the front door.

The rain stopped.