Marriage First, True Love Later



234 Back to the original position

When Lin Li woke up again, it was already midnight. The whole room was dark, but the big palm on her waist told her that the person lying next to her was not the little guy but Zhou han.

She reached out to pull away a certain someone’s large palm, but at this time, his low voice rang in her ear. go to sleep. It’s very late.

“I’m going back to my room to sleep.” Lin Li insisted on getting up and reached out to grab the big hand on her lower abdomen.

Zhou han didn’t let her go and pulled her back with force. His chest was against her back, and his hands wrapped around her waist even tighter. Their current position was like two spoons sticking close to each other, ambiguous and lingering.

“Let me go.” Lin Li frowned and struggled to move forward. Since she had already recognized the truth, she should return to her original position and let the two of them maintain the best distance.

Zhou han lifted his leg and pressed her down. He whispered in her ear, ” “Don’t move,”

Startled by his voice, Lin Li felt a warm object pressed against her back. It wasn’t the kind of young and inexperienced little girl, so Lin Li naturally knew what it meant. She also knew that a man couldn’t stand being provoked at this time. In the dark, her face suddenly flushed red, but she was afraid that she would directly provoke him if she moved again, so she forcibly stopped moving. However, she couldn’t hide the anger in her heart, so she could only stiffen her body and scold him in a low voice, ” “Hooligan!”

Zhou han didn’t say anything. His hands were still hugging her tightly. He lowered his head and buried it in her neck, suppressing the urge that was rolling in his chest. He wanted her, but he wasn’t a real hooligan. He wouldn’t force himself on a woman, even if this woman was his wife!

After a while, Lin Li felt the burning desire behind her slowly fade away. She didn’t dare to lie down beside him any longer. She reached out to grab his hand and was about to turn over, but Zhou han obviously didn’t intend to let her go just like that. He held her hand even tighter.

Lin Li groaned. Her waist and abdomen were in pain from his grip, and her brows were furrowed so tightly that they almost formed a knot. what exactly do you want?!

In the dark, Zhou Han’s voice sounded behind her. I’ve never treated you as a substitute. He had always known who she was. They had indeed worked together for mutual benefits when they first got married, but from the moment they started dating, even if he hadn’t truly fallen in love with her, his attitude was serious. He wanted to use a new relationship to forget the pain that his previous relationship had brought him, but he had never seen her as someone else’s shadow!

Hearing this, Lin Li was stunned for a moment, then laughed coldly in a low voice, ” hehe.

Zhou han frowned and emphasized, I’m serious!

“You don’t even know what you want.” That was why she would unconsciously call out that name in her sleep. She knew this feeling too well and no longer dared to try it again. In the ten years she had been with Chengxiang, although she knew that there was a figure in his heart that was hard to erase, and she could also feel that he was trying hard to love her a little more, it was because she knew his hard work and heart that she naively believed that time could erase everything and forget his feelings. However, the figure in his heart was too deep. So no matter how much effort and effort he put in, it would all be in vain.

At this moment, he was just like Chengxiang. She had experienced that kind of pain once, and she really didn’t have the courage to try it a second time. You could say that she was weak, or that she was timid, but she just wanted to protect herself.

I’ve always known what I wanted, even if it’s wrong. Zhou han said. His tone was firm. Back then, he knew that he couldn’t love Ling LAN, but he still loved her without hesitation. Even though he was hurt all over, he never regretted it because all of this was his own choice. Now, even if he found out that he was wrong, he would accept it. That was why he would face it no matter how hard it was. This was his responsibility. He had no complaints about the responsibility he had to bear for the wrong choice he made back then.

Lin Li reached out to turn on the light at the head of the bed, and the entire room was lit up in an instant. Zhou han raised his hand to cover his eyes before he got used to it. When he put his hand down again, he saw that she had already turned around and was looking at him.

“Do you really know what you want?” Lin Li asked him, her eyes looking into his.

Zhou han didn’t escape. He looked back into her eyes and said calmly, ” at least I’ve always known that I’ve never used you as a substitute for Ling LAN. He had been crazy for love before. Back then, he had given up everything for Ling LAN. However, if he still couldn’t forget Ling LAN even after seeing her true colors, then he wasn’t just stupid. He was a total B * stard!

Lin Li smiled sarcastically. but you were calling her name when you hugged me. Perhaps what he said was what he hoped for, but the human subconscious was the real thing, and it was the most instinctive reaction.

Zhou han was stunned. He frowned in disbelief and said with certainty, ” impossible. It was impossible!

Lin Li looked at him and said, ” but you did. You called her name when you were sleeping. You asked her why. Why did she leave you? ” Why did you give up on your relationship?”

“When did this happen? I have no impression of it at all!” Zhou han still couldn’t believe it. How was this possible?

Lin Li smiled bitterly. not long ago. It happened a few days ago. If it had been a month or two ago, she might not have had such a big reaction. But now, it was only now that she realized that she had actually taken him to heart. Otherwise, her heart would not have ached.

It was truly laughable. She had thought that after the incident with Chengxiang, she would never fall in love again, but she didn’t expect that she would fall in love with someone so easily. It was just that she was sad that there was a figure in the hearts of both men that she couldn’t get rid of. It was just that she was stupid the last time, so this time, she had to be smarter.

“So you moved out because of this.” It wasn’t a question, it was a very certain tone.

Lin Li pushed him away and sat up. With her back facing him, she slowly said, ” I had long hair for ten years because Chengxiang said he liked to look at me with long hair. I knew that he was thinking of another woman when he looked at my long hair, but I was too stupid at the time. I naively thought that as long as I had enough time, he would forget the person in his heart and slowly fall in love with me. He really doted on me. Because I was a glutton, I worked hard to learn cooking. His cooking skills were even comparable to the chefs of professional restaurants.”We’ve been together for 10 years, and we’ve barely quarreled, because he’ll tolerate everything about me, all my willfulness and unreasonable tantrums. Everyone says that I’m lucky to have found a man who loves me, Pampers me, and Pampers me so much. Even I feel that meeting him is a blessing from my previous life, but it’s also because of this that I’ve neglected and forgotten that there’s actually a shadow in his heart, a person that he can’t forget.”

Zhou han also sat up behind her. He didn’t say anything and just looked at her.

I thought ten years was long enough for him to forget someone and then fall in love with another person, but it turns out that some feelings are carved into the bones, carved into the blood. Even if another ten years passed, the love that was carved into the bone marrow was still the most inseparable. So when the truth came out and the person in his heart appeared again, all the love, tolerance, and pampering he had for me before became the biggest joke and the most ironic thing. I’m just a substitute for the person in his heart, a substitute for that person when he’s not by his side, a comfort for him when he’s lonely. Perhaps I’ve really entered his heart in the past ten years, but I’ve never been able to.” As Lin Li said this, she suddenly laughed. It was so ironic, so helpless.

Zhou han reached out to hold her shoulders and turned her body over. Only then did he realize that she was crying. He didn’t know when her face was already covered in tears.

Zhou han wiped the tears off her face and looked into her eyes. “I’m not him.”

Lin Li also looked at him, and the corners of her mouth curled up slightly. She reached out and pulled his hand down. She nodded slightly and said, ” yes, you’re not him, but you’re the same as him. There’s a woman in your heart that you can’t forget. Even if he hurt you, even if you think you can forget him, the facts prove that you’re just deceiving yourself and others. You’re just hiding her in your heart.

Zhou han didn’t say anything and just looked at her.

if you really want to make things clear, then let’s make it clear today. The thing I hate the most in my life is to be someone else’s substitute. So, whether you did it on purpose or not, I can’t accept it. I want us to go back to our original position and not make our relationship complicated. We’ll just maintain a cooperative relationship. I can cooperate with you to deal with the family, and you can cooperate with me to deal with my parents. It’s a simple relationship. Don’t mix it with feelings, because neither of us can afford it.

Zhou han looked at her and stared at her for a long time before he slowly opened his mouth. His eyes didn’t leave her as he asked, ” “Is this what you want?”

“Yes,” Lin Li nodded without hesitation. This wasn’t what she wanted, but she seemed to only want this.

Zhou han didn’t say anything more and just looked at her. His lips were tightly pursed and his hands on the blanket were clenched tightly. The blue veins on his hands were protruding as if he was suppressing the surging emotions in his heart. He looked a little scary.

Lin Li didn’t say anything else. After looking at him for a while, she turned around, lifted the quilt, and got out of bed. When she walked to the door of the room, the tip of her nose felt inexplicably sour. It was so uncomfortable that she only wanted to cry. Her chest was also stuffy and a little painful. This feeling was so annoying. She really hated it.

Zhou han watched her leave the room and watched her figure disappear from his sight. The moment the door was opened and closed, Zhou han turned around and punched the wall. There was a kind of anger in his chest that was difficult to dissipate.

Lin Li stood at the door and heard the movement in the room. She gritted her teeth and raised her head, forcing back the tears in her eyes. She took a deep breath and then left.

Ever since that night, there seemed to be an invisible barrier between Lin Li and Zhou han. The two of them lived under the same roof and were only separated by a door when they went to work, but the number of times they met was pitifully few. Lin Li avoided them and Zhou han also avoided them.

Leaning against the desk, Lin Li raised her hand and pressed her temple. Her head hurt a little, as if it was being pricked by needles.

The elevator door opened, and special Assistant Xu came up in a hurry. He almost trotted straight into Zhou Han’s office. When Lin Li returned to work, he realized that Special Assistant Xu’s work seemed to be busier than before. As for why Lin Li noticed it, it was because Special Assistant Xu directly took on a lot of her work. Sometimes, he even made copies of documents himself.

Lin Li subconsciously felt that this was because Zhou han was deliberately avoiding her, so every time she saw assistant Xu in such a hurry, she couldn’t help but feel a little guilty. So when she saw assistant Xu coming out of Zhou Han’s office with a stack of documents that looked a little scary in his hands, Lin Li couldn’t help but call out to him, ” assistant Xu, is there anything I can help you with? ”

Special Assistant Xu glanced at her and muttered softly, ” it’s your business anyway.

He spoke too softly, so Lin Li didn’t hear him clearly. what? ”

Special Assistant Xu laughed dryly and shook his head, saying that it was nothing. It was his fault for coming up with such ideas. Now, there was no medicine for regret!

When she turned around and was about to leave, she suddenly thought of something. She turned around to look at Lin Li and asked, ” “Secretary Lin, do you really want to help?”

Lin Li nodded and reached out to take the documents from him, but she was stopped by assistant Xu. He said, ” Secretary Lin, if you really want to help, don’t argue with President mo. Hurry up and make up with him. I’m just a part-time worker. If you continue to argue with me, I won’t even have time to go on a date with my girlfriend. How would I know that you don’t drink hot cocoa? ”

Lin Li was stunned. Hot cocoa … She suddenly thought of something. So this was what happened to her ” good friend ” that night. After understanding, she rolled her eyes at him in a bad mood. The little guilt in her heart was gone, and she turned around and returned to her seat.

Upon seeing this, Special Assistant Xu brushed his hair and went back downstairs with the documents.

The headache didn’t get better even after work. His head was groggy, which seemed to be a sign of a cold. He raised his hand to look at his watch. He was sure that if he didn’t go to the kindergarten to pick up the little guy now, he would be late. He didn’t care about the headache anymore, packed his things, and rushed off from work.

When the car arrived at the kindergarten, the bell had just rung. The entrance was filled with parents who had come to pick up their children. The kindergarten’s Gate opened after the bell rang. A minute later, the children in the yard rushed over, smiling awkwardly with happy smiles on their faces.

Of course, Zhou Jiabin was also one of them.

The little guy saw Lin Li standing at the school gate as soon as he walked out. He ran over to her and hugged her leg. During this period of time, the little guy seemed to have become dependent on Lin Li and loved to stick to her. Of course, he was a lot more cheerful than before and wasn’t so boring anymore. Sometimes at night, he would lie in Lin Li’s arms and tell her interesting things about school. As a result, he had less and less time to face the transformer that he had almost never let go of before. From his words, she could tell that he had made a few good friends in kindergarten. Every time he came back, he would mention them.

Lin Li was happy to see such a change. She felt gratified and happy for her child.

“Auntie, I want to eat KFC today, okay?” Sitting in the front passenger seat, the little guy fastened his seat belt and turned his head to look at Lin Li.

Lin Li smiled and asked, ” why do you suddenly want to eat that? ”

Zhang Jiaqiang said that his parents took him out to eat hamburgers last night. They even said that the hamburgers were very delicious. The little guy answered honestly. In fact, he didn’t care what hamburger was good. He envied Zhang Jiaqiang for having his parents take him there. If aunt Lin Li could also take him there, it would be great.

While driving, Lin Li replied, ” “That thing is not good to eat. It’s not healthy.”

Hearing this, the little guy only gave a low ‘Oh’, and his little face immediately darkened.

Lin Li glanced at him with a faint smile. When she turned to look at the road ahead, she only said, ” “It’s fine to go once in a while, but not more than that.”

The little guy was stunned for a moment. When he reacted, he showed a big smile and said happily, ” “Thank you, Auntie!”

Lin Li also laughed and freed a hand to touch his head.

She took the little guy to KFC and ordered a lot of things. The little guy ate very happily and the smile on his face never stopped. Lin Li ate a few fries but didn’t have much of an appetite, so she didn’t touch it again.

When he brought the little fellow out to eat, the sky was already completely dark. After entering winter, the sky was getting shorter day by day.

Because it was difficult to find a parking space, the car was parked a little far away. Lin Li held the little guy’s hand and walked slowly. The cold wind blew over, and Lin Li couldn’t bear the chill. She turned her head and sneezed several times.

The little guy on the plate looked at her and asked, ” “Auntie, did you catch a cold?”

Lin Li reached out to cover her mouth and nodded, saying, ” “It seems so.”

then I’ll accompany Auntie to the doctor. The teacher said that if you’re sick, you’ll get better quickly after seeing the doctor. The little fellow said in all seriousness.

Lin Li’s heart felt warm and fuzzy. She touched his head and said, ” Auntie will go back and make some cold medicine. You’ll be fine after drinking it. However, Xiaobin will have to sleep alone tonight because Auntie has a cold and can’t pass it to Xiaobin.

“I’m not afraid, I’m a man!” The little guy looked at Lin Li with a serious expression.

Lin Li laughed and squatted down. She looked at him and said, ” “Men sleep alone.”

The little guy bit his lip and was silent for a while before saying, ” “Alright,” he said. In fact, he was not afraid. He just lacked a sense of security.

Lin Li smiled and stood up again, holding his hand and planning to continue walking forward. However, when she looked up, she was stunned and surprised to see the person in front of her.

Cheng Xiang was standing about ten steps away from Lin Li. His hair was unkempt, and his clothes were crumpled. Under the light of the street lamp, he looked a little pale, and his face was very unsightly.

Chengxiang was also a little surprised. He looked at Lin Li for a while before slowly opening his mouth and softly calling out, ” Lin Li …

Lin Li came back to her senses and only nodded indifferently. She retracted her gaze and held the little guy’s hand, planning to continue walking.

The little fellow seemed to have felt that his anger was a little different. He only rolled his big black eyes and did not say anything.

When he walked to Chengxiang’s side, he heard Chengxiang say,”Let’s have a meal together sometime.”

Lin Li paused, but before she could say anything, she heard him say, ” “Just be normal friends.”