Marvel: I'm a Symbiote

“I can finally feel you, Alex~,” I spoke to my beloved as his presence in my heart solidified once again.

“You’re being a little dramatic, but whatever,” I heard him speak as he appeared beside me. Unable to control my reaction, I threw myself at him.

I missed his scent. The way he gently held my waist and held me close. I already feel like it’s been ages since I’ve hugged him like this.

“You have no idea how lonely I felt when I couldn’t feel you as closely as usual. It’s like I was permanently homesick,” I want him to know what his disappearance does to me. I never want to be separated from him.

“Just wait until I bond with your organs and nervous system. You won’t even need to rely on your powers to feel connected to me at that point,” He whispered in my ear, making an involuntary giggle escape my lips. I will always want to feel connected to you via my magic, Alex. The more I can feel you the better.

“I asked you to do it yesterday. You refused,” I spoke to him sadly. I wanted to feel him even deeper. I would love nothing more than if I could forever become one with him.

“And I’m still going to refuse,” Alex said. “It’s going to be soon, though. Don’t worry about it.” I felt a tingle go down my spine as it settled in my crotch. I want to have sex, Alex.

“It’s like you’re talking about proposing marriage to me …” I joked a little, trying to curb my libido. “I keep pushing you to propose and you keep delaying it for one reason or another.”

“I like to believe our bond runs deeper than marriage,” Alex said, kissing my lips. My heart fluttered and I was sure that I was looking at him with a lovestruck look when his lips pulled away from mine. “After all, we’re permanently bonded together. And for far longer than the life of a normal human.” His words roused a doubt in me.

“I’m still not going to be immortal after you finish the bonding process?” I asked. I want to spend all eternity with my Alex.

“Virtually immortal,” He answered. “Just like me. There are still things that can kill me, and by extension, you. But if we’re talking about lifespan, there’s no limit.”

I will make sure that no one will ever be able to kill me or you, ever, Alex. Promise. I didn’t say anything, sensing weird distortion close to us.

“Your outburst seems to have brought us company,” Alex tried to tease me, but I only felt annoyance. How dare a lifeform of my Dimension not bow to me as its first instinct. A claw came through the spatial distortion and I created a barrier to block it.

I didn’t even need to share a look with Alex to know what he was going to do. He was the same, knowing what I was going to do before the intent completely formed, even. More claws attacked us as we defended against them, but a creeping doubt took root in my head even as I easily located the beast and crushed it in the palm of my hand like a weak bug.

“I feel amazing!” I turned to Alex, my eyes shining. For once, I could truly let loose without caring about my surroundings. Hell, if nothing, my surroundings were the things supporting me. I felt right at home in the Chaos Dimension. As if the entire plane was welcoming my arrival.

“We could permanently stay here,” Alex offered. “You could become the new dimensional ruler.”

A wave of repulsion struck me the moment Alex spoke his words. The dimension wants something from me, doesn’t it? It wants to use me to further its own goals. It will then discard me just like a broken tool. My thoughts had no proof behind them, but I knew that to be the case.

“Fuck no,” My distaste shone through on my face. “Although I feel powerful here, I would much rather spend time in our sanctum, the construction of which I’m meticulously supervising. Hell, I even love the castle in Wakanda. I don’t want to stay in this dark and dreary place.” Those weren’t my exact thoughts but were close enough. I feel like this comforting feeling in the dimension is the same as the creepy uncle my mother used to tell me never to take candy from.

Even as I bantered with Alex, messing around with him, and teasing him. I loved his expression of my angry exclaim about killing Wong. Of course, I’m not talking literally, silly.

“Sex in zero-gravity, you say …” Alex’s offer enticed me. It moved me and I instantly felt myself getting wet, ready to take him — Why can’t these bastards just let us be? They just keep on coming. Just let me enjoy my alone time with my beloved. “I would love to, but we have more company …” I told him, suddenly extremely annoyed. I’m going to blast these bastards to smithereens for daring to interrupt my peace time with Alex.

The days passed as we continued to encounter all sorts of disgust-inducing demons through the dimension, all of them, somehow, singlehandedly were focused on doing their best to kill me. The contrasting feeling of the dimension greeting me warmly like its own child went against the constant attacks by its inhabitants, and the doubts in my mind about this place only increased. I felt as if there was some kind of dangerous scheme afoot here that involved me, I just couldn’t figure out what.

My feelings only intensified when I finally ran into that coward of an eye demon who kept quivering at my mere presence. It was disgusting. Not only the demon’s appearance and presence, but even its attitude invoked a wave of disgust in me. What was worse, I felt that the dimension had bestowed on it a certain level of fundamental authority, the same kind that I possessed. That made me think that that disgusting demon was given the same treatment by the dimension as me, which only increased my distrust toward the warm feeling that it invoked in me.

Things got even worse when I met the other nine leader demons. Each one of them was worse than the last. I just wanted to hide inside Alex’s suit and not come out until all the monsters were gone, but the dimension made me feel like I was obligated to show my strength to those creatures. I tried my best to distract myself by thinking of sex with Alex and the many ways he could destroy my insides, but ultimately, it was all useless.

Those demons all attacked me, forcing me to defend myself, and I’ll admit, I snapped a little. Here I was, the literal princess of the dimension arriving, not even to take anything from them and to merely free myself of my status and these bastards continued to get in my way. The worst part was that I felt the dimension itself showing a negative intent toward me when I was fighting them. It kept switching between its previous warm presence and its repulsive feeling that made me want to just leave. I couldn’t understand what was going on and the disgust that the creatures invoked in my entire being was truly getting to me.

Without Alex, I’m not sure if I could’ve survived against those demons. But I did and I went as far as I wanted to, eradicating them from existence as the dimension’s fluctuating intent calmed down. The damage, however, was already done. I was pretty much done with this place and just wanted to get out of here by now. I could even feel that the demons that I killed weren’t completely dead, merely weakened and they had revived in their domains. I just want to leave this place as soon as possible.

…

I hate them. I hate them. I hate them so fucking much. How dare they get in the way of my happiness when I was already merciful with them? I felt my entire world crashing all around me when I finally found the fragment of the heart of the dimension. It was all broken up, the same as my will to keep going. Merely staying in this dimension was taking a heavy toll on me and I couldn’t stay here any longer than necessary. I don’t know when it happened, but that previously everpresent warmth had now started to fluctuate constantly. At one point, welcoming me warmly, and at another, attempting to get me to leave the dimension. I realized that it was probably because of the fragmented heart.

Rage overtook me as I barely kept myself in control by relying on Alex’s presence inside me. If he hadn’t been there, I was sure that I would’ve made some horrible decisions that would have ultimately led to the Cthulhu’s scheme being successful as it turned me into empowerment for himself and took over the dimension completely.

A temporary sense of calm came to me after I finally gathered all of the fragments of the heart, but it was useless. This entire dimension seemed to be working against me at this point, unwilling to allow me to do whatever I wanted. Even after I forced the heart together, it threatened to kill me.

I snapped.

I snapped completely as the final straw broke for me.

I couldn’t take the abusive nature of the dimension anymore and exploded, my instincts taking over me. Since the dimension was going to do its best to kill me, I will reciprocate its will. I’ll destroy this dimension.

I lost myself in a bubble of uncontrollable hatred and despair that consumed me as I decided to take the dimension down with myself. Since it decided to dish out an ultimatum, I returned with my own third option. I don’t know much of what happened after that, merely remembering an intimately warm embrace taking over me. I couldn’t recognize it despite knowing that it was familiar. I wasn’t sure what I was missing as I almost killed myself trying to destroy the Chaos Dimension.

Then it hit me. Alex had saved me. I don’t know what he did, but he had saved me and we both had appeared in some kind of spaceship where he calmed me down and finally brought me back a sense of calmness that I had lost after going to the Chaos Dimension. He poured all of his passion into me as he fulfilled my wish of bonding with my organs. Despite the setback of the situation, I was finally able to enjoy my peaceful time with my man and leave everything to him. He could take care of everything and I would merely go along with his whims.

I want him to form an even deeper connection with me.