MTL - Please Take Care of Me, Young Master Quan

  Chapter 1090 Jun is also afraid of old age, she can't escape

  Jin Li was dumbfounded when he heard it.

  What is "Can't live without you"?

   Is that what she thought?

but…

How can it be?

"You don't love me, you never loved me. You said it yourself. Just after our first time, you left me in bed alone. I had a fever that day. I was dazed, but the tears didn't stop."

  Song Jing's heart stabbed, "...I'm sorry. Before, I walked into a dead end and didn't see my own mind clearly."

  Jin Li shook her head: "I don't believe it. Song Jing, I don't believe you."

  His voice choked: "Why?"

"You love my mother! Not me! Over the years, you have never forgotten her, and even adopted me for her sake. To you, I am just a tool to swear your faithful love , a way of expressing my memory and nostalgia for my mother.”

  She wasn't even a complete person. When he looked at her face and eyes, he always fell into a daze again and again, as if he was looking at another person through her.

   And Jinli has hated that kind of gaze since she was a child, but she is also greedy for that kind of staring and concentration.

  She also comforted herself deceivingly, it would be fine to be like this for the rest of her life, as long as she could stay by his side...

  But now she doesn't think so, "After leaving you, I discovered that there is another way to live my life."

   Song Jing's heart shook, his throat felt dry.

   After a while, he regained his voice: "... Ah Li, don't rush to say those hurtful words, give me a chance to explain, okay?"

  The woman was puzzled.

  In my impression, he never asks "Is it okay?" It looks gentle, but in fact it is tough. From the perspective of Buddhism, there is Shura hidden inside.

   "First of all, I have feelings for your mother...I used to think that it was love, but I figured it out as early as the fifth year after she passed away ten years ago. It was not love, it was more like a kind of dependence and gratitude."

  Ari's mother is eight years older than Song Jing. At the most desperate time in his life, she reached out to him and brought him light and warmth.

  But she has a childhood sweetheart, Ahri's father.

  At that time, Song Jing was like a younger brother in her eyes, and she was not stingy with caring and loving him, even her lover took good care of Song Jing.

  Later, the husband and wife went to Guangdong and Guangxi to develop, and the business was booming, and within a few years, Xiao Jinli was born.

  It's a pity that the good times didn't last long. When Jin Li was five years old, the couple were killed because they offended someone. When Song Jing arrived, the two had passed away, leaving only their frightened daughter hiding in the closet.

  Since then, Jinli has been taken by Song Jing's side and raised by herself.

   "I hope you are ordinary, at least stable, but you are not ordinary at all."

   Marksmanship, fighting, fighting, driving, everything that Song Jing has taught, she can always master it immediately.

   She is talented but works harder than others.

   This made Song Jing's gaze fall on her countless times silently and vaguely.

   But Jin Li didn't notice it, and even he himself didn't know what it meant.

   "The first time I had a relationship..." His voice was hoarse, "I wasn't completely drunk, I knew what I was doing, and I knew the consequences of doing so. But I still became muddled and a coward after I got sober."

  He didn't dare to admit it, and he couldn't face the girl he raised with his own hands, and he was even more ashamed of Ari's mother.

   Jin Li's eyes widened in disbelief.

   "That was the first time I tortured myself, how do I feel about you."

   "So, what's the answer?"

  Song Kyung: "There is no answer, I can't think of why, but the body reaction is very honest, so there is a second, third time..."

  The woman could no longer hold back the tears that were wrapped in her eyes.

   It turns out that her love is not unrequited love, and the person she loves is not hard-hearted.

  The infatuation for so many years has never been paid by mistake. She is gratified, but also tired.

   "It's late...it's too late...in the end, you pushed me away..."

"Ah Li," he looked at the young woman's face, he didn't know whether it was sadness or sorrow, "I'm seventeen years older than you, when I'm already getting old and you are still in full bloom, don't push me away." You, are you allowed to spend the rest of your life with an old man not much younger than your father?"

   "No," he laughed at himself, "I'm not even qualified to mention 'Yu Sheng', because I'm destined to walk ahead of you and not be with you to the end."

  In this relationship, it is not Ari who is humble, but him!

   "So, I tried to let go. But after three years of letting go, I realized that I can no longer live without you."

  The woman looked shocked.

   Such a confession was once her dream scene, but now that it has come true, it feels unspeakably sour and sad.

   "Ari, come back to me. I will present the best things in the world to you and your child. Even if I can't accompany you for the rest of my life, I will definitely protect you."

  Jinli's eye sockets were hot.

   Yes, she relented.

   She couldn't escape, as early as the age of twelve, when she was held in his arms through the hail of bullets, she knew that she would never be able to escape this man in her life.

  …

   "Have you considered it?" On the day Ahri was sent away, Shen Hou was standing on the pier on the bank of the Zama River.

  The wind was very strong, engulfed in water vapor, messing with her long hair and shaking the corners of her clothes.

   "Sorry to disappoint you."

  Shen Yu cast his eyes into the distance, and the profile of his face showed a touch of coldness: "Everyone has different ideas, so don't force it."

  As long as you don’t regret it.

  (end of this chapter)