The Love of a Lycan

"I don't want to," Lilac said this for a hundred times now. She rejected Jedrek's idea to go back to the other realm or to claim back her position as their queen.

This discussion had been going on for two months now and Lilac's answer remained the same every time it was brought up.

Even though their relationship was improving greatly, Lilac still refused to go with him to the other realm or stay there like how they should be.

Well, Jedrek said it himself that he didn't want to force Lilac into agreeing with him, but it had been two years since he finally found her, but there was no progress or whatsoever in this aspect.

"Can you reconsider it?" Jedrek asked again in a tired voice as he spread some butter on a toast before giving it to Lilac once he was done. "I will give you more time."

Lilac, who was taking the toast from Jedrek, immediately dropped it onto her plate and then frowned upon hearing what the man in front of her said. "I have considered it enough, but my answer is still the same."

Both of them could be super stubborn whenever it came to something they wanted, though Jedrek had really improved in this part, but still… old habits, die hard.

"No matter how much time you give me, my decision to not go back to that realm will not change," Lilac said in a firmer tone. She then picked up the toast again and bit into it. She chewed slowly, as she noticed her stomach was upset.

Maybe, because of the quarrel so early in this morning. She didn't think she wanted to go to her flower shop and just wanted to stay at home, lying down on her bed lazily.

Jedrek's expression looked defeated upon facing his stubborn mate. "Lilac, at least tell me what your reason is, my little flower."

It was very clear to hear that the lycan king was trying to suppress his ego and emotions. Trying so hard not to lash out in front of this rock- headed girl.

Even so, Lilac still continued with her cold demeanor, especially when she answered this question. "Because that place remind me of you and Serefina." This time Lilac gave him an absolute answer revealing her uneasiness. She didn't want to be in the same place where the memories of Jedrek's lover lingered around.

What had happened back then was still afresh in Lilac's memory about how much love Jedrek had had for Serefina, though she already forgave him, but it didn't mean she could completely forget about that.

No, that pain would forever follow her…

Every time they were together or whatever they did when there were only the two of them, the memories of how much pain that she had been through because of that still pricked at the back of her mind.

Those were not something pleasant to be remembered…

Meanwhile, when Jedrek heard that, he fell silent and didn't utter a single word as he realized that those great mistakes were indeed his fault for putting his mate in such a situation.

This made him resign himself and walk out of the kitchen without saying anything. No one could understand what was on Jedrek's mind. Even he himself couldn't describe what he felt now.

Did he feel annoyed? Angered? Irritated? But… maybe what he felt right now was simply the feeling of being ashamed…

He was ashamed of himself and there was nothing he could do to change that or what Lilac felt about it. Because, it was ultimately his mistake and no matter how lengthy apologies he could make, they couldn't turn the situation any better.

On the other hand, Lilac regretted it the moment she finally let it all out. The truth about what she felt right now, but she couldn't lie to herself anymore.

However, when she watched how Jedrek turned around and walked out of the kitchen with his slumped shoulders, she felt bad for bringing up the topic of Serefina again.

That topic was like a taboo to be discussed in their relationship, since it left deep scars on both of them and no one wanted to talk about it again.

Lilac then bit down on the toast and felt bitterness in her tongue. The taste felt awful and she couldn't finish it at all…

Her stomach grumbled again and all of a sudden, she realized her body was not well…

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"Are you okay?" A girl in her twenties approached Lilac when she was sitting behind the row of lilac flowers, while holding her head with her hands. She had been like that since two hours ago and this made Anna worry about her.

Anna was the new employee in this flower shop that Lilac owned. She had been working there for three months now, while studying in college.

"I am fine, just a little dizzy…" Lilac said in a low voice, shaking her head and stood up. But it turned out to be a wrong move. Because after that, she felt her legs give up on her as she wobbled.

If it was not for Anna's quick reaction, Lilac would have fallen to the ground and suffered some injuries, but because Anna moved fast, she was able to save her from the horrible fall.

"Come, let's take some rest," Anna said while supporting Lilac's body to sit down on the nearest chair. "I will make a cup of tea for you and close the shop."

And Lilac didn't say anything about it, she just sat there in silence and watched how Anna took care of everything.

Outside, they could see the moon shining brightly and that all the lamps in street had been turned on.

After Anna made a cup of hot tea and closed the shop, she sat beside Lilac and watched her closely. "You look pale," she commented. "Do you want me to take you to the hospital?" She offered.

Lilac shook her head. "No, I am fine… but, can you get me a taxi?" She didn't think she could walk to her apartment in her current condition. Though it was not really far, but still, it would take twenty minutes to walk from here.

"Sure," Anna nodded her head. "Do you want me to go with you too?"

Lilac shook her head again. "No, I am fine… you can go home after my taxi is here."

At first Anna wanted to refuse, but then she realized that Lilac didn't leave any space for argumentation. Therefore, she could only agree with her.

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Jedrek didn't come home last night, since he left the kitchen after their quarrel over the same thing again and again. While Lilac was too tired to think about that since she felt unwell.

Thus the moment she reached her apartment, she threw herself onto the couch, before hugging her body in a fetal position while trying to suppress the nausea that she felt. She soon fell asleep like that. 𝗳𝔯𝙚e𝒘e𝚋𝘯𝚘ν𝙚l.𝑐o𝙢

However, when Lilac woke up this morning, she found herself lying in her bed, tucked under her warm blanket blanket.

She then heard light footsteps that approached her room.

Lilac blinked her eyes a couple of times to adjust with the bright sunlight from behind the curtain.

And the first thing that she saw was Jedrek, standing in front of the door while holding a tray with a bowl of soup and a glass of warm milk.

"Do you feel better now?" Jedrek asked, as he walked into the room and sat beside Lilac's bed. "You were sleeping on the couch when I got home last night," he informed her.

"Yes," Lilac said tiredly and took the glass of warm milk from the tray. She felt thirsty and the warm liquid made her feel better. "I didn't feel well last night."

Jedrek then stretched out his hand and touched Lilac's forehead, but it didn't seem like she had a fever, just like last night.

"How do you feel now?" Jedrek asked in a worried tone.

"Fine," Lilac murmured, she felt better, but when she finished her milk, all of a sudden her stomach turned upset and the after taste of the milk could no longer provide any comfort to her as a wave of nausea hit her again.

"What happened?" Jedrek's eyes opened wide when he watched Lilac jump from their bed before sprinting toward the bathroom.

"Go..." Lilac waved her hand at Jedrek as she sat down beside the toilet. She didn't want him to see her like this.

Yet, there was no way in hell Jedrek would leave her like this.

"No, I will stay with you." He refused to move even an inch away from her and instead, holding her long hair so it wouldn't get in her way, he stayed there patiently.