Chapter 115: Finding Out Some Truths
Meredith.
I blinked repeatedly, my gaze searching the bathroom frantically.
Maybe I heard wrong or that was my imagination.
I tried to downplay the voice I heard, but deep down, I was shaking. I was afraid. So afraid of so many things.
But a fearful person doesn’t get answers right?
There was only one way to confirm my doubt, so I replaced a bit of my fear with curiosity since I couldn’t hide it all.
"Do you hate Draven?" I asked, squeezing my brows as I moved the loofah slowly across my arms as my ears perked up.
I didn’t want to miss that rich female voice.
"How did you come to that conclusion?"
My heart raced in my chest as Draven’s loofah slipped from my hand and fell into the tub.
That’s my wolf? I-I have a wolf?
My reaction moved in different stages in less than a minute.
First came Fear. A little bit of surprise and then came shock.
My lungs almost collapsed and my heart, it almost failed me.
I could feel my heart beating wildly in my temples as I tried to make sense of this.
I, Meredith Carter, the cursed wolfless deviant of the Moonstone pack had a wolf?
I had a wolf?
I kept repeating the same question over and over again in my head because for once, it didn’t make any sense.
I thought I was cursed and was never going to have a wolf?
Yeah... All those times I cried and cursed the Moon Goddess had nothing to do with me begging her to give me a wolf.
More than half of my laments were filled with blame as there was only bitterness occupying my heart.
Maybe I should have used all that wasted opportunity to seek something important from her rather than wallowing in pity for myself and hatred for her.
"Where have you been all this time?" I asked, trying to sound basely curious while hiding the mixture of blame and anger.
I believed that if my wolf had appeared at the right time a few years ago as expected, I would never have had to go through so much agonizing pain and situation.
So for now, I will only remain excited. Because indeed, I was actually excited to learn that I wasn’t wolfless.
And maybe too, I might not be cursed.
I didn’t want to get too excited and begin to overthink my situation, so I quickly shook that thought off and diverted all my attention to my wolf.
"I’ve been here. Just needed a little trigger to finally surface."
My wolf answered my question and also another one which I had planned to ask.
I was greatly overwhelmed with emotions.
M-my wolf has been with me all this time I was mocked and faced so much injustice?
Wow! Just wow!
But there was something else that caught my attention apart from the angry shock of finding out that she has been with me for long and didn’t just suddenly appear.
It was the fact that she said she needed a little trigger to surface.
"You needed me to sleep with a man... or Draven particularly before you could show up?"
In my head, I was already begging her to make her statement make sense because it didn’t. Unless she explained better.
"Draven. It had to be Draven."
I almost scoffed. But quickly remembered that I wasn’t in any situation to react violently to my wolf who had finally showed up to be with me, so, I held myself back.
"Why Draven?" I asked her, while patiently waiting for her response though a million thoughts were already swimming in my head. Definitely, except the right one.
There was a little bit silence that caused me to panic.
I was afraid my wolf had suddenly stopped working or probably disappeared.
I mean, I can’t be blamed for that. I was sceptical right now. And that made me realize that this was my greatest fear;
Losing something important I had rather than not having it in the first place.
So maybe, I was indeed luckier than some people that my wolf was hidden, rather than having one and losing it forever.
Finally, my wolf’s voice resounded in my head. She seemed calm. I mean the hard kind of calm.
You know when a person is impatient and has anger issues but tries to answer your questions without flaring up?
That’s what I meant.
"He is your mate. Isn’t that obvious?"
I forgot to breathe as silence settled over me.
Draven is... my mate? How???
I mean, there is no way I could have ever known that that stoic man was my mate. I didn’t have... know I had a wolf until now.
I even thought my wolf chose Draven for me to sleep with because he was my husband since my first mate had rejected me in a brutal and disgraceful way.
Like I said, I didn’t have a wolf back then to know if I had been mated to someone else again since I found out about Marc Harris being mate through gossips that spread. And him rejecting me truly confirmed the gossips.
Now, I was wondering if Draven knew I was his mate and forced me into this marriage.
But having known him for a little over a month, I stand to say that he wasn’t that kind of person.
He would have been no different from Marc Harris, and would have rejected me straight away.
Draven was an Alpha, our future King, and I had been a cursed wolfless rejected woman without a reputation. There was no way on earth he would have settled for me.
And that immediately leaves me thinking once again, for the reason he married me. Now that I recalled our conversations, he never answered that question.
Could it actually be because he knew I was his mate, or was there some other reason?
Also, does me being his mate has to do with why he helped me quench my heat last night?
I had so many questions that would take days to be responded to, and weeks before I finally digested and accepted the answers.
But I understood one thing from my wolf. I needed to sleep with my mate in other to bring her out from wherever she was caged.
That was the condition to my wolf appearing. And I hadn’t know until I had accidentally done the right thing for that to happen.