Chapter 202: Against the heaven's will
Chapter 202: Against the heaven's will
"I…" The first attempt of the girl to say something after I pointed out the specific of her outfit failed. "I understand." Her jaws tightened as she turned around and lowered herself down on her knees before pushing her upper body down as she fell on all fours. "Just get this over with."
With her face hidden, I couldn't tell what she was thinking… Or rather, I couldn't if not for those surprisingly useful qualities of being a witch. And to be frank, recognizing the fear, desperation, sadness, and depression wasn't the best kind of foreplay I would like to experience.
"Listen here, if you really want to rile me up, you will need to do a little bit more." While my words implied that I was actually happy with the development, the truth was… I wasn't. Even if Ayda encouraged me to seek good women I could spread my lineage with, it was still something that went against all the morals I knew and hold dear.
Just like my father never betrayed my mother, just like my mother never betrayed my father… I wasn't willing to betray Ayda. Or rather, the sheer scorn and disgust I felt towards myself from how I pumped my semen into that bastard female general from Ayda's world served as pretty detailed information on how I would feel if I were to lay down with this girl, no matter how beautiful and alluring she was.
"What am I supposed to do then?!" With all her efforts to let me have her way with her futile, with all her determination from before falling on infertile ground, it was only to be expected for the girl to fly into a rage. Yet, with tears brimming in her eyes, I could tell that she wasn't angry at me, but rather at the fate that her parents prepared for her.
"For now, just stop this folly, bring your dress so that it will serve the role of a damned clothing, and let me think." As much as I would hate myself for it later, I had no other choice but to disregard the feelings of this girl for now. Even if my body was craving to just ravish her and get the entire thing over with, it was my mind that held the supreme role in making the decision of what I, as a whole, would do.
At first, the girl was shocked by my response. Her lips parted a bit in a lovely, confused expression. Then, the colors returned to her face once again, making the girl turn red once again… But this time not from embarrassment, but fury instead.
"Do you think that I'm happy with what's going on?!" Suddenly shouting, the girl stood up before actually following my order and wrapping her body with the long streaks of her gown. Even though the material was so thin that it barely covered anything, once several wraps appeared over her crucial places, I could no longer see the details of the girl's intimate beauty.
"And do you think I am?" Angered by her shout, I replied in the same manner, only to regret it the second later. Shaking my head, I took a few breaths to calm myself down before bending my knees and sitting directly on the ground. "I do not mean to say that you are not attractive. Even right now, if not for the rules I try to follow in my life, I would rejoice at the opportunity to eat you whole. But…"
Taking a moment to formulate what I was actually going to say, I shook my head again before finishing. "But I just can't. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to betray my own rules just because that bastard decided it would be the best course of fucking action!"
Once again, my blood started to boil. Not with excitement though, but a rage instead.
Ever since I received this strange system, or rather, ever since the apocalypse began, my life turned miserable. Even with the few bright elements like meeting Ayda or growing stronger, the fact that I lost my parents, lost my name, and lost my entire life so far didn't change. And right now, this bastard god was trying to push me into doing something that I was sure to regret later on!
In a fit of defiance, an idea appeared in my mind. While drastic, it was just the simplest way to prove how I wasn't willing to just go and obediently follow every single direction that bastard god would point me at.
Standing up, I looked at my hand. Then, my eyes moved on the girl.
"Tell me, what would you do to avoid this fate that was forced on us?" Formulating my question in a roundabout way, I squinted my eyes a bit.
"Don't take it personally…" Noticing the emotional struggle from how my expression continued to change constantly, the look in the girl's eyes softened up a bit. "but I would do everything. I mean, I know that males do enjoy fucking around, but the same can't be said for the females. For us, just the act itself is worthless. And forgive my impudence…" Stopping her words for a moment, the girl swallowed a gulp of saliva before averting her eyes. "I do not hold any emotional link to you that would make this kind of experience bearable."
Listening to the girl's response, I couldn't help but chuckle a bit. Given everything that I saw both on earth and in all the other worlds I visited so far, her words applied only to the girls that actually grew up while valuing their purity. As long as she would travel anywhere outside the castle she was born at or the tower she was held at, she would learn that some women learned to make use of this simple activity, while others grew to like it as nothing more but a physical mean of getting their endorphins pumping.
But I was in no place or position to deny her words. Just like I valued my bond with Ayda and wished to both monopolize her and be monopolized by her, this poor princess clearly valued the fact that the place between her legs has yet to be used for carnal pleasure.
"So, in other words, you would rather die than to be defiled by me right here and now?" Slowly guiding the discussion towards the plan I had in mind, I could see how the flashing of the mission's name suddenly intensified.
"Well, I wouldn't go as far as to put it in such words…" Turning her eyes towards me when I posed my question, the girl averted them as soon as she attempted to answer. "But in general, yes, you are right. I do not wish to sleep with a man I don't know and don't love." For a moment, the pitiful princess whose fate was more tangled than the Gordian knot of the Greek legends disappeared, giving way for what could only be described as true royalty.
For a moment, the aura around the girl changed. Her eyes were now steadfast, glued to my face. There was no longer any hint of hesitation, fear, or desperation in her soul, replaced with nothing but a sheer determination.
"Good." Taking a step forward, I placed my hand on the girl's head, rustling her hair in an affectionate matter. Surprised by this action of mine, the girl looked at me with question marks almost visible in her lovely eyes. "Then I can only ask for your forgiveness." With my hand already on top of her head, I allowed it to fall down through her cheek before stabilizing it on her throat.
"Both you and me, are nothing more but pawns in the hands of that bastard who forced this fate on us. For some reason, he wants to make me impregnate you before allowing us out of this place." Looking around in order to pull the girl's attention away from my hand, I smiled sadly. "Regretfully, even if I die here, I won't be dead. That's why there is only one way to put a wrench into this bastard's plans."
Just as the girl's eyes followed the path my head took, my hand finally started to tighten on her throat. At first, she attempted to just shake it off, taking it for just an involuntary motion. Then, as my grasp over her throat continued to tighten, her eyes widened signaling that she finally understood what my intention was.
"Sthop…" Quickly realizing that speaking would only waste the air she already had in her lungs, the girl caught my hand before attempting to pull it away. In retaliation, I placed my other hand on her throat, once again tightening its grasp.
'I know you are watching, you bastard.' Given the means that this bastard god already showed to me, I had no doubt he was capable of something as simple as reading my thoughts. With my hold over the girl's throat only continuing to tighten, I was quickly reaching the moment when rather than choking her out, I would simply snap her neck. 'Just so you know, I won't stop even if it kills me. I'm done being your damned marionette.'
My hands tightened even further.
"Stop it." As soon as the familiar voice appeared in my ears, I pushed my entire body forward, pinning the girl underneath me. Letting go of one of my hands, I quickly grabbed the barrier stone of Sander's making before pressing its activator… But rather than allowing the magic inside it to run free, I used my own mana to artificially stop the stone from activating.
A deed I could keep only for a few moments, given how insane degree of precision was required not to put the entire formation written into the stone into disarray.
"If you make me unconscious, the stone will…"
"It won't activate. In fact, there is nothing in your hand at all." Just as I wanted to threaten God himself, his words turned my thoughts into disarray. While I knew it could be just a ploy to get me to release the stone… No, I could lie to others but not to myself. With just a single thought I could tell that my fingers no longer held anything in them.
"I lost, then." Releasing my hold over the girl, I didn't dare, or rather, didn't bother to do anything at all. As the princess quickly escaped from underneath me while fighting to regain her breath, I looked at the God who once again appeared in front of me. "What now? Let me guess, you will force me to do what you wanted and then wipe my memory, or will I get some punishment for attempting to live my life in the way I want?!"
As my words struck close to my heart, filled with the insanely huge need for freedom ingrained in my blood by the ancestors of my ancestors and their ancestors who always stood up to those who attempted to rob their freedom, by the time I finished my question, I was no longer speaking.
I was shouting from the bottom of my lungs.
"No, you showed your resolve. I won't force you to do anything anymore." Shaking his head, the God smiled. "But now it's up to you to shoulder the weight of your decision." This time, God smiled. "In other words, how are you going to solve the problem at hand, now that the most peaceful way to avoid the world-ending war in this world is no longer possible?"