Beastmen Love

After a big fight with her spouses, Astri is trying to expose her feelings to them. She has too much in her mind.

"I know it’s dangerous and that you want to protect me, but I don’t know if you understand or care that if I don’t go not hundreds, but thousands of people might die. A whole kingdom might be destroyed and the Devil King will have thousands of more Monsters to attack us in the future. If I decide to go I’m a bad wife and mother, but if I don’t go I’m a murderer and still a bad wife and mother for letting things grow into an unmanageable proportion. I prefer to stick with bad wife and mother only, because at least I won’t have to carry a kingdom’s death on my mind. Do you think I want to leave my comfy bed? Do you think I want to leave Tyr, who will also have to face things alone in The Great Wall City? I also need to think about his safety or else EVERYONE will be affected, not only him or me. I don’t want any of that. Life will never be easy, comfortable, and peaceful. We can make it be even in hard times, depends only on us."

She sighs and tries to contain her emotions. frёewebnoѵēl.com

"I’m sorry if I made you feel excluded. That wasn’t my intention. I was going to talk to you to find the best way for us to go. There are a lot of things to discuss and to find solutions. You just need to know that not everything that I’ll meddle, but some things I must meddle. I can’t carry other people’s deaths and Nature asked me to go. What would do if you were in my place?"

They are silent, absorbing everything she says. They never thought about her perspective and she was always very cooperative, not meddling in many things. She would always watch and let them do what they thought was the best, empowering their decisions.

"I’m sorry... We were very insensitive. I didn’t imagine you were feeling so pressured like that." Wayde says.

"I might be something similar to you, but I was raised to be who I am, and since I was little knowing about who I am. However, after meeting you and falling in love with you, my meaning changed and I understand your thoughts. I was being selfish and insensitive. Even being similar to you, I don’t have half of the importance in this world. I can only imagine that you must feel scared.." Claud speaks.

"I am scared. But I have you. What made me angry wasn’t the fact you have a different opinion, but because I felt I couldn’t count on you anymore. That you were just like the bastards I’ve met before, only thinking about them. Or the places I stayed that would only treat me well as long I would do what they want. And worse, say that I was being a bad wife and mother. I want everyone’s happiness, more than anything, you idiots. Can’t you see?" She says and cleans the tears that are starting to fall again.

Wayde and Lee hug her tightly, while the others try to touch her somehow, like holding her arm, head, or hand.

"You’re not a bad wife or mother. I’m sorry about what I said." Wayde softly says.

"Me too... Me and my damn mouth." Lee affirms too.

"You can count on us forever. I’m sorry that I didn’t understand your feelings and didn’t try to see things from your eyes. I never thought I would have the life I have now because of you. What I fear the most is losing this. But it won’t mean a thing if the enemies will grow stronger and you will be in more danger even living here." Zin speaks.

"I feel the same as Zin. I know that you have an important role not only in our lives. I just forgot that it might be too heavy for you. I’m sorry if I made things heavier." Cyprian says, rubbing her head.

She hugs Wayde and Lee and rests her head on Wayde’s shoulder, sighing.

"It’s hard to decide things.. Anyway, I feel scared. But I know what I don’t want to happen. And that is to feel the regret of something I could have done." She softly says.

Tyr watches from a little distance and smiles seeing that things are looking better. He decided to watch again just in case they decided to attack her again. He wonders if she had a hard time in her life before meeting them after hearing what she said.

Also, Tyr doesn’t want anything to happen to her. He understands well her males’ feelings, but, as a King, he knows that he can’t decide things only on his own desires because it might affect more than only him and her.

He wishes he could go with her and protect her, but he won’t have time enough to fulfill his promise and come back before she leaves. He can only wait for her return and help take care of the United Tribes.

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From nowhere started to rain again and they had to come back inside. Astri sits and brings a paper she listed of things to talk about.

"Ships are hard to live in because it’s hard to keep hygiene. Hard to bathe with clean water. Hard to wash clothes. It will be hard to cook proper meals for everyone. I know ways to have clear water for drinking. Also, we can build a fireplace to cook and also have plantations inside the ships so we have more food than only fish. Before we leave, Beau will have to let us build some things in the ship so it can become a better place for us to live while we’re traveling." Astri says.

"How are you planning to have clear water? It’s the most important thing." Claud asks.

"There are two ways. When we boil seawater we can have salt and clear water, but we get clear water from what is evaporating. Using covers on the pots that will redirect the water for us to drink. It’s not a hard task. But I can also make it rain with Nature’s help, rainwater is also clean water. We will have to build a big pot to store the water. Also, cut as much firewood as we can have on the ship. The plantation will also be hard to keep, but it will be important. Especially for the cubs. We will probably feel nauseous in the ships because it’s a different surface to live in and that it is moving all the time. We must be careful to not get sick." She explains.

"We need to raise herbs in there too." Zin says and she nods.

"What about security? The sea is too deep and we do not know what might attack us. How safe are these ships?" Lee asks.

"That’s a good question. You will have to ask Beau. He only said that he could protect us because he’s the strongest Guardian of Aquaterra and has 20 marks. He also brought other water beastmen with him." Astri answers.

"Is he mated?" Zin asks and everyone looks at him.

"I didn’t ask. Does it make any difference?" She chuckles.

"Is he handsome like he’s strong?" Lee asks.

"Don’t even start, please. For goodness’ sake." She rubs her temples.

"All right. Sorry. I’m just curious."

"Having a 20-marked mate would be good for her." Tyr says.

"It would, but it’s her decision, not ours." Cyprian affirms and looks to all of her mates.

They just left a big fight, and they can’t get into another one. Cyprian is probably the only one who doesn’t mind Astri having other mates, but he understands his companions because though he doesn’t mind, he is also jealous of other males.

They keep planning their travel and how everything will be organized after they leave in United Tribe. Astri and Claud help Tyr to plan what he must do.

"I think we need to leave 2 of your guards with Tyr, Claud. Tyr needs people he can trust entirely and now he doesn’t have any. Also, they will keep him safe." Astri says.

"It is true." Claud says, however, if he could choose from his selfish perspective he wouldn’t lend any guards because he prefers keeping Astri safe. "We will be on ships, in the sea, some beastmen are weaker in water surfaces like gorillas or monkeys. I’ll leave you Saul and Keane. Both gorillas. Saul has 11 marks and Keane has 12." Claud speaks.

"Thank you, but you don’t need to leave one of your strongest guards with me. As long I can trust them, it’s fine. Astri needs more protection than me." Tyr says.

"You are right. But we will have 10 of my guards, us, and other sea beastmen. Also, I’m sure Saul and Keane hate water and I think they would be grateful if they’re not put in a ship." Claud speaks.

He’s not lying. Saul and Keane only learned to bathe for the respect of Astri. She hates to see dirty floors or smell something bad.

"All right. Thank you."

Claud tells Tyr the names of Elders that are plotting against Tyr and Claud. Details of how they’re gathering and Tyr can have proof. Tyr already knows how to implement the new laws, he only needs to find a way to make the good Elders stay on his side and start to act against the evil Elders.