I Should Have Just Died

Seidrick agreed on that point.

‘How can I comfort her? She’s more than I thought….’

The Doctor answered Seidrick’s question as if there was nothing complicated.

‘Listen to the story. And comfort her. That alone would be great healing.’

Seidrick was skeptical…

Now that thought flashed through him; it was because Alyssa’s heart seemed lighter. Conversation. Communication. During those times, Alyssa and Seidrick were extremely lacking in that. Fortunately, they exchanged letters and talked it through….

There was no way he could fill the three-year time with that alone.

“I wanted a family………. So it would be lying if I said I didn’t expect it when my first marriage was decided. It was just an illusion built in the sand. My sand castle collapsed when I heard that another Lady’s fiancee, Kendrick, was forcibly made my fiance.”

Alyssa sniffed her red nose and blamed herself.

“Then the king killed Kendrick. It was an obvious murder. The king didn’t feel any indebtedness to the man who would be my husband. At the same time, the king also abandoned me.”

Seidrick paused.

No one thought of that part. The king murdered Kendrick, who was supposed to be Alyssa’s husband. It was an act without respect or love for Alyssa. In the process, he wonders why she didn’t even realize that Alyssa must have been hurt by it as well.

He thought only of the misfortunes of Cambridge. Even he didn’t care about Alyssa’s pain.

Seidrick struggled to smile.

“However, since humans are forgetful, I started to look forward to it again. Seidrick, I pray that I can have a happy family with you. I know it’s shameless, but for me, that was my only hope..…. hiccup….”

Alyssa shut her mouth.

Seidrick slowly hugged Alissa, who was burning red.

“Speak slowly. Tonight is long, and our days together are even longer.”

Hiccup!

Seidrick pressed his lips to Alyssa’s forehead. He then kissed the bridge of her nose, which turned red.

“And there is something you misunderstood….”

Hiccup!

“You have never been less beautiful to me.”

Alyssa’s purple eyes twinkled with water. Seidrick kissed Alyssa over her eyelids.

“Every moment was beautiful, so you don’t have to worry.”

Alyssa’s eyelashes trembled.

“Even when I resented you, I was in love with you…….”

Seidrick kissed Alyssa on the cheek.

She slowly closed her eyes. Seidrick slowly lifted her hand, which was still covering her lips.

Seidrick slowly placed his lips on Alyssa’s. Breath heated with tears passed between their lips. Seidrick carefully pushed his damp flesh into his. Alyssa trembled like a startled rabbit and opened her lips.

A refreshing scent lingered in her mouth as the maids let Alyssa bite a herbal leaf. Alyssa grabbed Seidrick’s forearm.

Seidrick gently rubbed Alyssa’s back. The breath pouring out of his nose is heavy.

While holding Alyssa’s stiff body, Seidrick took a deep breath. The tension escaped from Alyssa’s body as he touched her warmly as if it was okay.

Seidrick continued to kiss Alyssa, who was shaking with hiccups, and hugged her.

Little Alyssa was too small in her mouth as well.

On that long night, Seidrick kissed Alyssa. He took Alyssa’s full breath and gave her his.

It’s like drinking Alyssa’s story that goes on and on.

As Seidrick said, the night was long, and the dawn did not come easily.

***

Alyssa blankly patted her lips.

“Your Majesty?”

What happened to her yesterday feels like an illusion, but touching her swollen lips awakens her sense of reality.

“Your Majesty!”

“Yes, huh?”

Dania sighed as she watched Alyssa being surprised.

A thief who has learned stealing later will not even realize that the day breaks (an idiom meaning ‘for a person who becomes interested in a certain thing later than others to tend to be more enthusiastic about it.’). So what did they do last night when Alyssa’s white face was still burning red? Dania shook her head and said once more.

“Prince Norfe committed suicide.”

Alyssa blinked her eyes blankly.

Alyssa and Norfe were the only surviving members of the previous royal family. She heard that Norfe had all his property confiscated and that he was living in and out of bars like a vagrant. And Alyssa didn’t expect Norfe to overcome that life in the first place.

He was like a weak parasite and depended on power in the first place.

Perhaps even such an ending was expected.

Alyssa nodded slowly.

“Please retrieve the body.”

Maybe that’s the best condolences Alyssa can offer.